"you idiot. i swear to god you are the dumbest person i know."

there he was again, being scolded over the phone. it was the third time this week. being scolded over the phone by his savior has been a routine and he sometimes just shrug it off. he's been used to it and it's nothing new.

"you should've ran away!"

"noona, he was right in front of me. we were both there, frozen." the man replied.

he heard the woman from the other side sigh. she kept rolling her eyes that it almost got stuck to the back. she rubbed her temples slightly and sighed for like the 5th time over the phone now.

"just be careful next time. and i told you, you shouldn't go out during the night. i don't care if the baby woke you up. what if you were kidnapped in the middle of the night? you know how many bad people are scattered all over your place, you live in the slums for fuck's sake. you should've just accepted the apartment i offered you outside of seoul. but no, you're just so stubborn."

and it went on and on.

"goodness, it's bad for the baby. i'm sure you know that. the apartment's still up, just move in already. he won't find you there. he didn't even notice your big belly."

this time it was him who sighed. as much as he didn't want to bring it up, the woman did for him. he turned the barbeque over and continued with his work.

it's almost night and taeyong was just waiting for all of the meat to be cooked. his last customer was waiting patiently and so he tried to finish quickly. by now, it's about sunrise to where jessica was. she just woke up and it's her only time of the day where she could call the younger man.

when taeyong left jaehyun, he didn't have anywhere else to go. he came back to his parents even if they don't want him. he was being rejected but he forced himself inside the cramped home in the slums.

he didn't have a job so he decided to sell barbeque outside to gain a little profit for himself. although it wasn't enough, he managed to eat atleast two meals a day. the money was only his of course.

he was living just fine, poorly added, until he felt sick one day.

coincidentially, he was on his way outside of seoul, going to a nearby convenience store when he bumped into a man. he was a doctor. he didn't know the doctor, but the doctor knew him.

he fainted and the doctor caught him. he was brought to the clinic and that's when he found out he was pregnant. normally, he wouldn't faint but he was overworked that time. and so the doctor offered some help.

but he learned that the doctor knew jaehyun. so he begged not to say anything. until his only resort came to be the woman he didn't expect to help.

the doctor and he had an agreement. he would receive proper care secretly, with the help of jessica jung. jessica would send him the right amount of money every month for his everyday needs. the clinic tests every month was free for him too, offered to him by the doctor--although taeyong knew jessica paid for it all.

after all the grudge jessica held against him a few months back, she still helped taeyong. and she didn't once let jaehyun know.

he was offered a nice apartment outside the border of seoul to help taeyong set up. she wanted her new nephew to be safe with him and away from his monster family, but taeyong refused. he was given proper clinical care every month for free and he was receiving money for his essentials too--he thought it was too much so he refused.

the only good thing about his neglectful family was that they never hurt him physically. at least the baby would be safe. he assured his two saviors that he'll be fine.

he didn't know what would happen once the baby comes out in the next 3 months, but jessica told him they'll figure it out. she'll fly back for him and help him settle. indeed, jessica is a nice person.

"alright noona, i'm going home now. i'll call you again tomorrow." taeyong said as he cleared away his stuff. he was done for the day, and next was to face his family.

"alright. be careful, taeyong. bye!"

not only did jessica help taeyong himself, but she also sent enough money for his nephew to study. his nephew was now sent to a school in busan with his real dad. jessica, with the help of her connections, found the boy's real father and took him away from taeyong's sister.

she sent them to busan to start over and now the boy's happily living with his dad and studying properly. the boy haven't come to visit taeyong yet but he promised he will sometime soon.

jaehyun's sister did all that in a span of 4 months.

they didn't let krystal know because she was getting busy with taking care of taeyang. basically, she's got a lot on her plate too, and considering she wasn't that great at keeping secrets, she might accidentally spill it to jaehyun and taeyang.

taeyong was on his way to the house and he walked carefully. time to see my monsters. he thought.

"are you sure you're not going to find him? i already told you where he is." krystal said.

she held the baby and on her left arm as she sat down next to her brother. the baby got used to sleeping with his mama, so their only excuse to the baby was that his mama was away in some other country and will be back soon.

they kept saying soon and since he was still a baby, of course he bought it. that's why krystal hired someone to find taeyong. they needed him to come back for taeyang.

"not now, but soon. i just saw him last night." jaehyun said and took taeyang from the lady.

he played with his son since it was his only escape. whenever he looked at his son, he feels a pang in his heart. he remembered what he said to taeyong that day.

"not once will you touch my baby, again."

"now you're just someone who gave birth to him."

"so no, you are not taeyang's parent."

he sighed as he remembered. he's been cruel. and to the only man he's ever loved. he wasn't supposed to do that but it all came out of impulse. he was really furious, and as a result, he let out really hurtful words to taeyong.

"you better do it soon. taeyang's been looking for him every night now. it's a good thing he bites on every excuse i say." krystal says keeping her feet up the table.

jaehyun was used to living alone. but back then, he had his parent. now that he's only alone with krsytal, it's been dull. there's no yunho, no sooyeon, and no taeyong. somehow, he finally felt what he's been missing his whole life.

"daddy. when's mama coming back?"

jaehyun took a look at his son and brushed his hair slightly. he kissed the side of his head before smiling at his son. "soon, baby."

"we can't call?"

krsytal looked at jaehyun from the side and furrowed her eyebrows slightly. "uhh, mama's new boss is strict so we can't call him just yet. but we will as soon as we get the chance, okay?"

"okay, daddy."

and next to him, the baby drifted off to wonderland. for the thousandth time, jaehyun felt the guilt rushing through his veins. maybe this wouldn't have happened if i didn't lash out on taeyong. he thought.

i'm sorry you had to live like this, baby. i'll bring your mama back, one way or another. he said inside his head.