-Iwaizumi Hajime x Oikawa Tooru
-From the Anime Haikyuu
-This is a ship with two guys, if you don't like it, don't read it.
-Base idea created 14th of January 2021
-Started 7th of June 2021 ~ Finished 17th of June 2021

A/N: My very first song-fic! I hope it works out :) It's not completely in sync with the song but at least I tried ^^ I'd suggest listening to the song once or twice till you think you got the melody and then just read it without. When I tried to read it along with the song it went too fast and I couldn't focus on the story :')

Also unsure whether this is IwaOi or OiIwa, you'll have to decide for yourself I think.

Note; I didn't give the girlfriend a name because it just felt like too much of a struggle. Might as well refer to her as "Oikawa's girlfriend." :p

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Feeling used but I'm still missing you

Iwaizumi looked at Oikawa as he walked next to his best friend. How many girlfriends has the guy had so far? Too many to count surely.

And I can't see the end of this

The endless loop, a girl likes him, he asks her out, and they date for a week. It's terrible.

Just wanna feel your kiss against my lips

How would he be able to confess his own love to his best friend? Would their friendship be ruined?

And now all this time is passing by

Another girl, however this time it lasts two weeks. Oikawa still hasn't broken up with his new girlfriend.

But I still can't seem to tell you why

Morning practice, Oikawa was distracted. "Keep your focus! I can't spike if the setter doesn't work with me!" Iwaizumi yelled.

It hurts me every time I see you

"You know what, forget it." Iwaizumi sighed, walking away, a hurt expression on his face.

Realise how much I need you

He turned his head, usually Oikawa would follow him. This time, however, he ignored him. He just continued training, asking Mattsun to help out instead.

I hate you, I love you

Iwaizumi felt like punching something. The frustration of loving someone who so clearly friendzoned him hurt.

I hate that I love you

Maybe he should just give up on his crush. Would that make it hurt less?

Don't want to but I can't put,

Nobody else above you

But however hard he tried during the day, he just couldn't stop thinking about him. The handsome, adorable younger boy would do something to attract his attention, no matter how he tried.

I hate you, I love you

What if he looked at his bad sides? The selfish asshole he is.

I hate that I want you

But he couldn't, he knew how weak Oikawa was behind his shield.

You want her, you need her

Yet still, as the brunette walked past with his girlfriend, he looked away.

And I'll never be her

What if he was in her position? He'd reach up and kiss him, uncaring of the stares others would give them. His girlfriend however just giggled.

I miss you when I can't sleep

He woke up with a start. Yet another dream. Should he text Oikawa? No, he'd probably be busy or asleep.

Or right after coffee

Another night of restless sleep. He threw the rest of his coffee down his throat and stood up, walking out of his house.

Or right when I can't eat

Skipping breakfast, not hungry. Too busy in his head to even think of eating.

I miss you in my front seat

Walking out onto the street, he looked to the spot where Oikawa used to wait for him. But no, there he went, with his girlfriend. Straight past Iwaizumi without even sparing him a glance.

Still got sand in my sweaters

Oikawa threw himself on the sand, flashing a goofy grin at his best friend laying next to him.

From nights we don't remember

A smile on his face as Tooru hugged him from behind, both of them exhausted after a day on the beach. Iwaizumi shook his head, clearing the memories. 'I remember those nights, he seems to have forgotten.' He thought.

Do you miss me like I miss you?

Again, at school, once he arrived, heading to the gym for morning practice, Oikawa ignored him. Walking past him without even looking at him.

Fucked around and got attached to you

'Why do I bother?' He wondered. 'I won't have my head in the game, it'd be better to just skip it for now.' Head down, he turned around and went to his homeroom.

Friends can break your heart too

Should he have confessed when he had the chance? Would it have changed anything? His heart had a bigger problem, his crush was ignoring him since he had a different lover. His chest clenched as he walked away from the gym.

And I'm always tired but never of you

Iwaizumi dropped his bag next to his table, dropping in his seat, holding his head in his hands. A yawn escaped his mouth, reminding him of his sleepless night, thinking of Oikawa. Without noticing his gaze had slipped and now he was staring at the empty chair in front of him; the seat of the setter that was permanently on his mind nowadays it seemed.

If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit

He pulled his gaze away from the chair and looked outside, his head in his hand. 'What if I was the one with the girlfriend?' He thought. Oikawa would still bother him, get his attention. Be hurt if he ignored him.

I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that shit

Iwaizumi looked up as his best friend entered the room, his mind made up. 'Let's see how long he can ignore me.'

Break time - He didn't bring any food, but Oikawa didn't even notice.

Last period - "Where is my pen?" He mumbled softly, yet hard enough for Oikawa to hear him. No response.

Afternoon practice - Oikawa would toss to him, but not with the usual teasing. In fact, he kept missing his tosses, making it harder for Iwaizumi to spike them.

I type a text but then I 'nevermind' that shit

After practice, home alone, his parents at work, Iwaizumi sat on the couch, typing a text to Oikawa without thinking. Then he looked down, and saw his text. "Oi, Shittykawa, what's going on with you? Why do you keep ignoring me?" He quickly removed everything he had typed and closed his phone.

I got these feelings but you never mind that shit

He leaned his head back against the couch, thinking about how it's always Oikawa sharing his feelings. But whenever Iwaizumi tried to, the brunette would cut him off. "Who even cares anymore..." The ace sighed.

Oh oh, keep it on the low

Oikawa waited patiently for his best friend at their meet up spot, his girlfriend next to him. Iwaizumi came out of his street, glanced in his direction, and walked away, head down, ignoring Oikawa.

You're still in love with me but your friends don't know

Oikawa raised his eyebrow, something must have happened for the spiker to ignore him like that.

If you wanted me you would just say so

If something was wrong he'd say so right? Why wouldn't he? What reason could there be for him just to ignore Oikawa like that?

And if I were you, I would never let me go

'I would never ignore him...' Iwaizumi thought. 'Even if I had a girlfriend. Not like I want one, but that's not the point.'

I don't mean no harm

"I need to do something. Don't wait for me." Oikawa blurted to his girlfriend as he saw his best friend walk past. 'I need to catch up to him.' Was the only thought on his mind as he left his dumbfounded girlfriend behind to rush after Iwaizumi.

I just miss you on my arm

Something had felt off for a few days. He realised it now; he had ignored Iwaizumi because he was spending time with his girlfriend. And it had hurt them both.

Wedding bells were just alarms

"Iwa-chan!" He called, throwing his arms around the older boy without giving him a chance to respond. Of course he was more important than his girlfriend.

Caution tape around my heart

Of course he liked his childhood friend. Why wouldn't he? Handsome, strong, adorable when startled. What was there to not like about him? He'd just always been too scared to act on it, afraid he'd be turned down and losing their friendship.

You ever wonder what we could have been?

Iwaizumi flinched as he felt Tooru's arms around him. What had changed his mind? "I need time to think, leave me alone Shittykawa." He mumbled, quickly slipping out of the embrace, leaving Oikawa behind.

You said you wouldn't and you fucking did

'What did I do wrong?' Oikawa wondered. 'Everything.' A small voice in his mind said. Of course he had. He had spent too much time with his girlfriend. He turned around, somberly going home.

Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix

What had changed? Why did Oikawa suddenly notice him again? Iwaizumi didn't trust it. 'Either completely ignore me and let me get over you or just come back to me already.' He thought. How warm Tooru's arms had felt around him.

Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed

Did the setter mean to apologise? Probably. 'I'll give him a chance.' It wasn't even a choice. It was just what felt right.

Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing

'Why did I get myself into this mess in the first place?' Iwaizumi thought back all the years, but couldn't remember exactly how and when he'd become friends. He only remembered being friends with him. He was always there.

Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance

Day one - Ignoring Oikawa had been hard, but the guy had persisted, even throughout practice he tried to get his attention by flinging insults his way.

Day two - No change, if anything it had gotten more intense. Everywhere he'd go he would hear the annoying "Iwa-chan!!"

Day three - "Iwa-chan!! Come sit with me!" "Iwa-chan!! Stop ignoring me!" "Iwa-chan!! Nice spike!" At the end of the day Iwaizumi had a headache.

I know that I should control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing

Before they got like this it was always them hanging out. Iwaizumi realised that back then he'd actually felt happy. Happier than he was now.

But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings

Who even cared about his crush? All that mattered was his friendship with his best friend, his crush, his captain, his setter.

When love and trust are gone

Hurt, betrayal. Of course she would break up with him. All Oikawa would talk about nowadays was Iwaizumi.

I guess this is moving on

"Iwa-chan!" He tried to sound happy, he really did. But Iwaizumi still ignored him, and that stabbed him again.

Everyone I do right does me wrong

"Please let me explain--" "I don't want to hear it Oikawa." Same situation, two different people. Both Iwaizumi and his former girlfriend wouldn't listen to him.

So every lonely night, I sing this song

A smile on both of their faces as he hugged Hajime from behind, both of them exhausted after a day on the beach. He woke up with a start, staring at the ceiling. 'I remember those nights, he seems to have forgotten.'

I hate you, I love you

That time back when they were both kids and he'd hurt his knee, Iwaizumi had given him a piggyback ride home.

Or the time after his first girlfriend broke up with him. Hajime had hugged him and told him he'd be okay. That your first girlfriend is usually not the one you stay together with forever.

I hate that I love you

Wouldn't they have been better off staying as friends? Oikawa thought he'd never be able to confess to him.

Don't want to, but I can't put

Nobody else above you

No matter what, he'd do his best to get back to those happy times, with Iwaizumi as his best friend.

I hate you, I love you

Hurt, confused, Iwaizumi wasn't sure what to do. Should he give in,

I hate that I want you

And go back to Oikawa? He really wanted to...

You want her, you need her

But what about his girlfriend? What if the setter was still spending most of his time with her?

And I'll never be her

'I don't stand a chance...' He thought. He'd have to wait a few days and see what happens.

All alone I watch you watch her back

Iwaizumi saw Oikawa staring at his girlfriend in the hallways.

Like she's the only girl you've ever seen

Without even noticing him. That was it, the last drop. He couldn't take it anymore.

You don't care you never did

He turned around, grabbing Oikawa by the collar of his shirt. He pushed him to the wall.

You don't give a damn about me

"What is wrong with you?" He yelled. "Why do you keep ignoring me? What have I done wrong?"

Yeah all alone I watch you watch her

"You just don't seem to have time for me anymore, do you?"

She's the only thing you ever see

"Pay more attention to your best friend! If I still am..."

"How is it that you never notice

That you are slowly killing me?" He murmured.

I hate you, I love you

His eyes widened as Hajime pushed him to the wall. As the male spoke he understood what had gone wrong. "I never meant to ignore you that much, Haj- Iwa-chan. My conflicted feelings came in the way, and I was unsure what to do."

I hate that I love you

"But now I realise that no matter what I should never have given up on the most important thing in my life."

Don't want to but I can't put

Nobody else above you

"The one that will always mean more to me than anyone else." Fuck, there was no way out of this. So be it. "I love you..." He whispered.

I hate you, I love you

Hajime quickly let go of Tooru. A small smile appeared on his face, and he softly slapped the boy in front of him. "Dumbass." He murmured.

I hate that I want you

"I love you too," he replied, leaning in. A glance up at Tooru's eyes was all the confirmation he needed. The setter's eyes were glued to his own lips. He softly pressed them together.

You want her, you need her

He knew now, a glance at his boyfriend, that the guy had never really liked any of his girlfriends. It were his own feelings that were making it seem that way.

And I'll never be her

'I don't need to be her, I'm myself. That's good enough.'

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