I made this I think mainly because of my face reveal (oop not to the whole Internet nice try) and I had the inspiration to do two.

This is a "before" if you will, before I realized I am probably most likely trans.

Unlike other people I know, I don't get that offended when I'm referred to as a boy, nor am I very uncomfortable with my junk. I mean I am, but I thought all teenage boys were when they accidentally saw that when getting in the shower.

Anyways-

That always messed me up.

Do I /really/ want to be a girl?

I never felt dysphoria urging me to be a girl that bad, most of the time I'm just fine and content. Maybe it would just be easiest to not do anythibg to my body and leave it how it is. But I always feel happier when I imagine myself as a girl.

I'm starting to wonder of the unexplained sadness I had in 9th grade was a result of being unsure about my gender, but amplified because I didn't know what was wrong with me. I kind of eased out of it when I started questioning my gender.

I say it started with the rejection and and me being a hopeless romantic (I learned that I am associated with this term just yesterday) so I clung onto that and let the solemnity drag me throughout the school year, which was probably a big part, since I let it control my life, but I think another big part was how she rejected me-

"Sorry, I'm ace."

At the time, I didn't even know what gay was.

So I did research... and that's when I found all those wonderful terms of the LGBTQ+ community.

So, yeah, I think I subconsciously knew about these terms and knew that I didn't fit being straight, and I couldn't figure out what the problem was. (I blame my very laid back dysphoria. Come on, be more of a pain on me, geez-)

This should be like a normal chapter... eh, I've already written it down here. One more drawing coming btw.