Everyday, the line gets more gray. I can't tell whether I should be a girl and be what I think makes me happy, or stay rational and be a boy.

It's like being split between left and right brain. Left brain wants to be a boy because it's ligical, it saves time and money. I don't necessarily need to be a girl, and above all else I shouldn't take the risk of not being happy with myself after the process is complete.

On the other hand, the right brain, is all about emotional health. Taylor is really beneficial to my emotional health, for now at least.

People really do just love me for my personality. I'm just caught up in other people's opinions that I don't have time to make my own.

But.. will I ever be able to do that..?

My friends say yes, others say no.

My mom is ok with it, my dad is unsure.

And most importantly, my brain says no and my heart says yes.

My gut is unsure.

There is no tiebreaker.

It's all up to my conscious, now.

No matter what you do or say, it probably won't help. The most you can probably do is just.. idek.

I guess support me fir whichever one I choose, but I know you'll accept me anyways c: