Killua's POV

What is this feeling?

Somehow, I felt something pinched my chest. After I saw Gon and Alyssa kissed, I've been experiencing this weird feeling that I never felt before.

It bothered me a lot why I care about it too much.

Flashback

I walked straight to Gon's room, going to tell him more information about Kurapika's mission.

When I was about to enter, I slightly opened the door and peeked inside. Only to see him and Alyssa, kissing.

I felt really shocked at the moment, but there was also an side emotion residing in me.

Anger.

That's when I realized I was crying.

But what I couldn't understand is why I was shedding tears? It's not like I have feelings for Alyssa, do I?

I ran away in silent as I didn't knew that the yoyo from my pocket fell.

I felt really bad for ignoring Alyssa, but somehow I don't want to talk to her or to anybody.

I just want to be alone until I realize what is this feeling that kept bothering me endlessly.

"Killua!"

My train of thoughts were disrupted when I heard a loud voice rang in my ears, turning around to the person who called out my name.

"What do you want?"

Gon.

"Well, I just wanted to apologize for the other day. I wasn't really myself that day. I'm sorry for acting selfishly and hostile towards you. Indeed, I felt inferior to you. I felt envious of you, but I want to make mysel—"

"I'm the one whose envious of you."

I interrupted him as he was confused, his face was like asking to what did I meant about that.

"Tell me the truth, do you like Alyssa?"

His eyes widened, surprised.

"Why did you asked, Killu—"

"Answer the damn question!"

I don't know why but I felt angry. I need answers. I NEED THEM NOW.

"I..." he was hesitant as I tried to kept myself cool, waiting for his answer.

I couldn't understand why he was so hesitant, he can be honest with me if he liked Alyssa. I just need the truth.

"I do like her."

See? He did like her.

"But...I only like her as a friend."

I gritted my teeth. His answer didn't satisfy me. "You don't have to deny it, Gon."

"I'm not denying it, I'm telling the truth. I don't see Alyssa in a romantic way..." he explained.

Not in a romantic way?

I grabbed his collar as I glared at him, angrily.

"If that's what you feel, then why did you kissed her?!"

Normal POV.

"If that's what you feel, then why did you kissed her?!"

Unknown to them, someone was listening to their conversation but kept herself hidden.

Alyssa wanted to talk again with Killua, she was walking through the hallways when she heard an argument going on. Only to see Gon and Killua, arguing.

I feel bad for eavesdropping. I should probably go now. she thought and was about to walk away when something stopped her.

"You knew...?" Gon muttered.

"We were just eating candies, then she got to eat her least favorite candy. I was curious in why she was acting like that...so I stole the candy away from her...by pressing my lips—"

"You're always like this, Gon. You kept doing the things you want without being considerate of my feelings. Do you know how much it pains me to see you two like that?!"

"W-What do you mean....?"

"I...I don't know! But I'm angry, so angry that I can kill anyone right now."

I don't like this feeling.

"I think I know what you're feeling." Gon said as Killua turned to him.

"You're just jealous."

Killua hated this feeling called "jealousy".

Alyssa couldn't stand this anymore. She felt horrible for eavesdropping, she turned her heel and run away silently. Her cheeks bright red as her pulse were beating fast.

Killua is jealous of me and Gon.

She still don't know, even when it is spelled right in front of her. Maybe she knows but couldn't believe it or maybe not. It's safe to not jump into conclusions first.

Before she could therefore conclude of this issue. She turned to the person who she can trust.

"Kurapika-san!"

The blonde turned around to see a pink haired girl whose cheeks is blazing red.

"Alyssa? What's wrong?" the little girl ran up to him and asked.

"What is jealousy? Can you eat it? Is it sweet?"

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"Why are you jealous in the first place? Do you have feelings for her?" Gon asked as Killua was still holding his collar.

The white haired boy was surprised that he let go of his collar, he looked away.

"I...I don't have any feelings for Alyssa." he said.

"If you don't have feelings for her, why feel this way?" Gon asked.

Gon was right.

"I don't know why I'm feeling like this...."

Was what Killua said, but Gon knew what was the answer. The black haired boy decided to stay quiet until his friend found his answer.

"I didn't knew that you didn't liked me kissing Alyssa, sorry." Gon said.

"W-What are you apologizing for?!" Killua stuttered.

"I felt guilty for making you feel that way." the boy in green said.

The silver head reply no more as his cheeks were red, he wanted to cool down and think about his feelings for awhile. Whether this is true.

"So are we friends now?" Gon asked, apologizing. Handing his hand towards the boy.

"Best friends." Killua said, accepted his apology. Shaking his hand with a smile.

They both let go and they laughed as if nothing intense happened earlier.

"Hey, can I ask a question?" Gon said.

"What?" Killua asked.

"Why is Alyssa's hair down?"

The dark haired boy asked the white haired boy, he noticed that the pink haired girl's hair wasn't tied in twin pony tails. Did she changed her hair style?

Killua thought that it's suppose the time to tell Gon the information he had.

"About that, I think the reason why she kept her hair down was...because of the markings on her neck."

"Markings?"

"Yeah. I intend to keep this to myself until I asked her that, but I think you should also know this."

The two male kept quiet, thinking.

"Do you know where and how she got it?" Gon asked.

"No. I don't know." Killua said.

"How about we go and ask her?" the black haired boy suggested.

The silver head assassin sighed. "And you think that she's gonna tell you?"

"Yeah. Why not?"