Walking through the strange apartment, the  place was foreign void of love, void of any memories, this place felt cold, no warmth. Looking around, I knew i was in for a long night, setting down my things, I walked around, amazed at how spacious, luxurious this place was. My heart was still far removed from my present situation, during those crtical moments, I found myself questioning my faith, my faith in myself and my faith in God. During those times, the lord never forsaken me, he always showed himself strong to me, he helped me to see my circumstances through his vantage point, I was able to take responsibility for my situation. Looking out the window, i was captivated by the normalcy of life, people casually moving about their day, oblivious to time. Unconcerned about trivial matters. Through all the pain and sadness, I've been able to hold my head up high. The reality, of of my situation, suddenly hit me I am all alone. Living in isolation, I yearned for the closeness, my aunt and I shared, through my recovery, she always motivated me. Kept me focused on the things that really mattered to me in life, relationships. Through life there is a cycle of reciprocity, that helps to keep, our relationships healthy, lack of reciprocity creates resentment, tension, this imbalance can manifest in unpleasant ways. Destroying family bonds, and close relationships.the cycle of giving and receiving meets the needs of others in a variety of ways. Any act that we perform, through our free will, has a cause and affect, we may experience long term. And short term consequences. This can greatly impact how we live out our lives. Reflecting back over my life, I am grateful to God for my life.He is everything to me, bond by sin i was unable to see the goodness of the lord. He has always been by my side no matter, how big the problem was, I am glad that he convicted my heart of its sin, i was so far gone i was dead in my tresspasses, losing faith, and all since of self worth, although very painful, the lord showed me where my decisions in life were leading me, I was headed to hell, my decisions did not affect me, they affected everyone else that cared about me. Gracing me with a sound mind, he helped me to put things in their proper perspectives, he loved me unconditionally through those painful moments, his love restored my soul. I repented of my sin, the lord was faithful to cleanse me from all unrighteousness. Even though I live in isolation, iam hopeful that God will restore my life, help me to rebuild, and repair all my relationships. Using my phone card, i dialed my aunts number, it was good to hear her voice, wrapped in her voice, was love, warmth acceptance, listening to her ministering to my spirit rekindled many memories, causing me to feel encouraged, and to realize that all trouble is temporary, it does not last always.