Jimin POV~

Yoongi and I were now walking home. The sun was setting, the sky a beautiful mural of orange and purple tones. Clouds were slowly rolling over the sky, becoming the same tint as the sky. I smiled softly and squeezed Yoongis hand gently as we walked.

"Everything alright?" Yoongi asked. I turn to him and smile.

"Yeah. I'm just content right now" I hug onto his arm. Yoongi slipped his arm of of my hug and wraps it around me. I smile more as my heart flutters.

"What do you wanna do when we get back to my house?" I look up at him as we wait to cross the street.

"Wanna watch a movie or something? It's still pretty early" Yoongi glanced at his watch.

"We can if you want. We can watch it in my bedroom, hopefully my parents don't interrupt us" I pull back from his hug, holding his hand again as we start to cross the street. Yoongi chuckles softly and follows next to me.

Soon, we were back at my house. My parents were sitting on the couch, watching some TV together.

"Hey kids. What are you guys gonna do?" My dad asks, taking a sip of his tea.

"We're gonna go watch a movie in my bedroom" I wave at them and start heading up to my bedroom.

"Keep your door open!" My mom called behind us.

"Mom!" I whine, blush firming across my cheeks and up my ears. Yoongi let's out a laugh and winks at me as we step into the hallway, out of sight from my parents. He then grabs my hand and pulls me back into his arms. I yell in surprise and look up at him.

"What are you doing?" I whisper. Yoongi just smiles and kisses me deeply. I hum softly and close my eyes, hugging his neck; kissing back. I pull back quickly

"Yoongi my parents are downstairs" I whisper again, he hums in response and starts kissing down my neck. I sigh softly in pleasure and grab onto his shirt.

"Yoongi stop" I laugh lightly. Yoongi starts walking forward, making me walk backwards into my bedroom. He kicks the door shut behind us gently, not making a noise. Yoongi pulls back momentarily and walks us over to the bed.

"What are you doing?" I look up at him.

"Nothing" He smiled innocently, kissing me again. I kiss back but pull back quickly.

"Yoongi-" I start but he cuts me off by gently pushing me back onto the bed. I pause and look up at him.

"I don't wanna have sex" I say quickly, shrinking back.

"We're not gonna have sex Jimin. I'm just playing with you" Yoongi laughed and crawled over me.

"What are you doing then?" I blush as I look up at him.

"Doing the opposite of what your parents said not to do" Yoongi laughs. I snort and cover my face as I laugh as well.

"You're ridiculous" I hug onto his neck and kiss him again. Yoongi smiles into the kiss, leaning down some to deepen it. I hum in content as I pull back from him, smiling.

"What movie shall we watch?" Yoongi asks as he climbs off of me, sitting down on the bed. I sit up and go over to my desk and grab my laptop; crawling back onto the bed after. I started up my laptop and put on a random romance movie.

"Romance? Are you trying to seduce me?" Yoongi chuckled as he wrapped his arm around my shoulder.

"Yeah you wish" I roll my eyes and set the laptop up in front of us. Yoongi kisses my temple and we lay back to watch the movie.

***

When I open my eyes, the room is pitch black. I groan softly as I stretch out, my laptop falling off my lap onto the bed. Sitting up, I grab it and put it on my end table and turn on my lamp. I rub my eyes and glance around the room tiredly.

Yoongi was asleep on the bed, one arm over his stomach and the other where my head was just laying. I smile to myself and lean closer to him, just looking at his face. He was so peaceful while sleeping, like he had no cares in the world. I gently run my thumb across his cheek, admiring his face.

"What did I do ever to deserve you?" I whisper to myself. I place a gentle kiss on his nose before I lay back down in front of him. Yoongi stirred lightly in his sleep, scrunching his eyes tightly. I bite my lip as I try to remain still to not wake him up. He soon calms down and goes back to his deep sleep.

I gently start to stroke his hair gently, letting my fingers run through his long locks gently. Yoongi slowly pulled me closer to him, burying his face into my neck with a yawn. I smile softly and continue to brush my fingers through his hair gently. Yoongi hummed softly and hugged onto my waist with his free arm.

"Are you awake?" I whisper.

"Yes" He whispered back. I smile softly and lay my cheek against the top of his head.

"What time is it?" He asked.

"I don't know. I just woke up too"

"I'm hungry. Let's go get food" Yoongi pulls back and looks at me.

"What food are you wanting?" I sit up in the bed.

"I want ddeokbokki" Yoongi makes a hum of hunger. I laugh lightly.

"Let's go get some then" I get up from the bed and slip on a hoodie over my t-shirt. Yoongi grins and gets up as well. He takes my hand and quickly and quietly drags me down the stairs. I giggle to myself out of excitement as we slip our shoes on. Yoongi unlocks the front door and starts to head out to his car.

I step out after him and lock the door behind me. Shivering at the cold air I make a break for Yoongis car, climbing in quickly. Sighing in relief at the warm air. Yoongi starts to pull off when I was strapped in.

"I'm also thinking of getting some of those cheese corn dogs that are really popular right now. Do you want one?" Yoongi glances at me as he drives.

"Oh I'm not really hungry" I lie. Yoongi raises an eyebrow as he stops at a red light, placing his hand on my thigh.

"I'm getting food and we're gonna eat together." Yoongi chuckles.

"But Yoongi I'm not really hungry" I half whine.

"If I have to feed you myself, I will Jimin." Yoongi looks at me. His eyes serious but also sad at the same time. I gulp lightly and just nod my head, looking down at my lap. Yoongi sighs softly and continues to drive when the light turned green.

"What kind of diet are you on? You seem to watch what you eat really closely" Yoongi spoke up after a moment. My stomach dropped and I could feel the adrenaline pumping through my veins.

"Uh the one where you eat less than 1,500 calories a day" I look up at him. Yoongi was frowning in confusion.

"How long have you been on that diet?" He asks.

"I'm almost a year" I scratch behind my ear nervously.

"You're only supposed to do those for short periods Jimin. Those can harm you" He rubs my thigh gently. I sigh softly.

"I know but it was showing results so I just kept going along with it"

"Promise you'll try and stop?" Yoongi looked over at me as he pulls up to a little street food stand. I look up at him. I already promised myself that Yoongi.

"Yes Yoongi. I'll try" I smile softly at him. Yoongi smiles back and pecks me on the lips before he climbed out of the car. I sigh and put my face in my hands. How could I let Yoongi catch on?! I never wanted him to find out about this. This was my secret, my plague, that was mine to deal with. I didn't wanna burden Yoongi with any of my problems. I don't wanna scare him off. I plop back into the car seat.

Sitting in silence, my mind began to fill with unpure thought thoughts. Thoughts about myself. 

I sit up and turn on the radio, and it turns on. It was playing a CD. It started off with some breathing, then it started the actual song.

Behind every idol rapper who succeeds..The song began.

It sounded like Yoongi who was talking. I frown in disbelief and continued to listen to the song. The song continued to go on, Yoongi sounded angry as he talked about having depression, social anxiety, and the pressure placed on him. A single tear rolled down my cheek as I heard him go on in the song. I had no idea Yoongi was dealing with so much and yet he always made time for me, to do things with me, to be with me.

I sniffle and turn off the radio once the song had finished, cleaning my cheeks off. I lean my seat back and sniffle as I try to contain my tears. I didn't know Yoongi was fighting such demons. It hurt me that Yoongi felt like he couldn't talk to anyone about it.

"Here can you take these?" Yoongi says as he opens the car doors, handing me a few bags of food. I quickly sit up and take the bags before setting the food on the floor between my feet. Yoongi climbed in and strapped in.

"Hey, Yoongi. Are you okay?" I ask. Yoongi pauses and turns to face me.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Why?" He half chuckles.

"I was just checking" I smile softly. Yoongi frowns for a second before smiling and starting to drive. I turn and look down, staring down at the console of the car.

"Something wrong?" Yoongi asks as he continues to drive down the street.

"Yeah. Everything is fine. I just wanted to check on you" I lean my head back onto the headrest as I look over at him. Yoongi nodded and turned the radio on, the song continued playing. He immediately turned it off and switched it to the radio. I bite my lip nervously and mess with my hoodie string.

Yoongi eventually pulled up to an empty parking lot that was at the top of this small hill, looking over part of the city. I sit up and stare over the view in awe. The bright lights and the stars were so pretty and vibrant when surrounded by the darkness of night.

"Ready to eat?" Yoongi grins as he lays his seat back a little. I smile and pick the bags up and set them up between us. Yoongi digs through and pulls out a large container of ddeokbokki, and a separate container. I curiously open up the container, inside were the corn dogs that Yoongi had talked about.

"I got four of them for us to try. Ones the normal one, one has hot dog and cheese, one has potatoes on it, and the last one is like a special one they have. It's like, mochi and hot dog. I dunno, it looked good so I got it" Yoongi chuckled as he opened up the container of ddeokbokki. I lick my lips hungrily as I picked up the one with cheese in it. I take a bite, humming as the cheese begins to pull from the rest. Yoongi laughed as he mixed up his food.

"Its really good" I laugh lightly as I separate the cheese, stuffing it into my mouth. It was really good. I chewed quietly as I stared at it, the guilt beginning to bubble in my stomach as I enjoyed the food. I closed my eyes and tried to force those thoughts away.

I want to get better. I want to be better. For Yoongi. I took another large bite, humming in content as I chewed.

"It's it good?" Yoongi laughed as he started to eat his own food. I nod and hold it out to him so he can take a bite. Yoongi leans over and takes a bite.

"Mmmh" He moaned at the taste as he pulled away.

"Right?" I laugh and set it down in the box, wiping my hands with a napkin. I reach into the bag and grab a pair of chopsticks and start to eat some ddeokbokki with him. I ate slowly and took small bites, but at least I was eating.

Me and Yoongi continued to eat, even feeding each other a couple bites every so often. I didn't even realize how much I had eaten until I was full. I sighed tiredly and laid back into my seat, rubbing my belly.

"Full?" Yoongi laughed as he packed up our trash before setting it in the back seat. I nod my head and yawn loudly, food coma now starting to set in.

"Do you wanna go back home?" Yoongi rubs my thigh gently.

"Do you? We don't have to if you don't want to" I turn and look at him. Yoongi shrugs a shoulder.

"I would like to be able to cuddle you again. Plus we dont wanna get caught if your parents happen to get up early" Yoongi laughs and started the car back up. I smile and nod in agreement as I close my eyes tiredly. Yoongi started to drive us back home to my house, I laid quietly in the passenger seat. Watching as the stars flew by. My eyes slowly began to get heavy, making me yawn.

Soon, I fell asleep.