P/s: I tried to translate it into English so that everyone could understand, but I'm not a professional so I don't have much room for it. ☹️ Hope you understand🌻🌻🌻

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Two weeks ago, I planted a bean.  A week ago, underneath the soil had sprouted the first sprout.  And today, I have a small green tree.

Six months ago I saw him.  Three months ago, I was moved by his gaze.  And now, I have a silhouette of someone in my heart.

Having a crush on a person is like planting a tree, which needs to go through many stages: Sowing seeds (Good Feeling), Germination (Vibration), Rooting (Like, Admiring), Growing into a tree (Sympathy).  For some people it might be enough to just go to the favorite stage but for me, having a realm higher than Sympathy is LOVE.  When we LOVE someone, we want to bring the whole world to them, we want to do everything just to have their smiles, even though they don't know who we are.

I went through the first four processes in just six short months.

Sow seeds 🍀

Producex101 is the program that made me meet him. Although just a fleeting moment, I have good feeling about him.

"What kind of person do you like?"
"Umm, a boy with a single eyelid slanted slightly, should look like a bad boy a bit.  Well, the better if it is a rapper.  That would look cool. "

He is very similar to my ideal type but unfortunately I am not too concerned.

Loveshot: Wow, that blue shirt boy looks so cool and sexy.

Yes or No: What's your "내거" name?  Flow sounds so cool.

Move: OMG, is Seungyoun-ssi right?  Is he the center?  So cool.

The only keywords that make me think of him are "All rounder" and "Cool".

Germination 🍀

Before I knew about Seungyoun, I was supporting another trainee and luckily thanks to him, I was able to see Seungyoun again.  I have started to think why I left this talented boy before?  The way he led the conversation, the way he cared about the members, the way he smiled at them.  That look is so warm.  The boy was like the sunshine of the early morning, clear and warm, soft.

I want to know more about this guy.  The boy brought a ray of sunlight to shine on my heart.

Like that person 🍀

To like a person, we need a turning point or more accurately a push.  The turning point that made me from Vibration to Like him is Seoul Fashion Week.  The boy walked the red carpet with messy hair, a blue shirt and matching waistcoat, and high trousers.  I didn't know what words to use to describe my feelings at the time.  That person just stood there waving but my heart was pounding.  So I know, this boy has taken my heart away.

I began to look for that boy.  Knowing his past, knowing his good things, knowing his habits, bla bla.  And of course that's not enough, I want to know more, more and more about him.

My love had once been away from home, but because of his passion for music, he returned.

My love had failed more than 50 auditions but was not discouraged.

My love once froze group activities due to the Korean ban.

My love was once a rebel LUIZY and was willing to "cook in the kitchen" whoever stopped his steps.

My love used to be a mature WOODZ. "I believe that being a person must be like a tree.  Quiet in thought, like the root, flexible in thinking, like a leaf ".

And now he is X1 조승연.

It's a pity that I wasn't with him when he was 18 but thankfully, after many times leaving this guy, I finally managed to hold on to he.  Seungyoun made me desire to become someone like him.

"I want to be a singer recognized both in Korea.  I hope when my mother says 'I'm A Singer A' people will immediately recognize who the singer is. "

I also want to be a person that when people talk about me, people will say, "It's the fan girl of X1 Cho Seungyoun.  She is very talented and good as her idol."

So now, I always try just to have such a day.  Seungyoun is not only a person who makes me want to see every day but also a motivation for me to fulfill my unfinished passionate dreams.

A word "Sympathy" 🍀

Between like and Sympathy very far but sometimes people equate it with each other.  The best distinction between likes and Sympathy is your interest in the person.  If you like someone, you will notice every little detail of the person and when you find out about their shortcomings, you gradually become depressed and so there is no more emotion left.  But sympathy is different, no matter how that person has defects in your eyes, you are cute-like-human.  Seungyoun is not a god, he isn't perfect.  He is just a person like me.

Seungyoun said he could drink two bottles of soju but his friends said actually 1 cup ㅋㅋㅋ

Usually screams loudly when playing games, and then he dies quickly :)) Everyone also knows where the nickname Seung-die-soon came from, right?  :))))

My Seungyoun is scared of ghosts too 👻👻

Say it and have to say it again, besides those shortcomings, there are many things we admire in Seungyoun's person:

Enthusiasm in pursuit of passion

Sweetness and tenderness in manners and action

Cuteness in each smile eyes

Professionalism on every photo shoot and even in real life

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The last realm: LOVE 💖

This is the final stage to make them come to mind.  And now I am trying to reach it.  Love is not easy.  I'm still not confident enough to stand near him, I still can't accept it if the next person he goes with is not me.

Love is learning to ACCEPT AND COMPLETE.

And I haven't learned it yet.  But don't I have a lot of time to see him?  Maybe later I will learn how to be perfect.  Because he has spent his youth standing on the stage, he deserves the best in life.

If possible I would like to leave a message to Seungyoun:

"My Seungyoun is doing well.  Shine like the stars in the sky.  Even if you feel tired or find it too difficult, please don't fall, I'm here.  Will not leave you.  사랑해 조승연 ❤️ "

Seungyoun is the brightest stars in this vast universe.