confused gender talk + clothes ¿rant?

(This is coming from a retard who knows little about gender. So if I make someone angry about not getting something right, sorry I've not been enlightened about the ways of how gender even works bc I'm stupid still)

I know it upsets trans people when misgendered, and remember I can't speak for all, but from all the people I witnessed being misgendered, they were upset or showed signs of being upset

And me being cisgender, it's also upsets me when I get misgendered. I appear calm when correcting them, but inside, I'm panicking. It's just, does it look like I don't fit in? Does everyone think I'm a boy? Is that why they stare? Do they stare because they don't know if I'm a boy of girl? Or is it just me looking weird?

And it didn't help that the night before being misgendered, I had a dream that I was called a man. And, I swore my mom called me a sir twice, but I was delirious that day, prolly didn't happen since that whole day was just a haze now, since I didn't sleep at all watching mukbang's (practically asmr of ppl eating food) and confidence-contagious makeup tutorials..

And that morning I strangely gained some confidence! But that was all wrecked by: the woman working at the clothes store calling me a 'gentleman' (she said, I will be with you ladies and gentleman. I stupidly looked around since I thought the other woman had a son with her), my mom instantly shooing me away to shop in the men's section (they do have nicer, less-thin, clothes though), thinking that my mom called me a sir.

But out of all the men's clothes I bought, it was mostly floral, there was a white shirt with big flamingoes on it, a nasa shirt and a pink one with cockatiels.

The reason I wear mens shirts is because: insecure about weight and those thin af womens shirts ain't helping that, clothes are overall thicker since those those flannels aren't gonna keep you any warmer, everything is always super thin in the women's section, and I guess the clothes store where me and my fam end up shopping at for clothes thinks that men like beer, video games, and flowers/birds, since all the shirts there had that theme going. But I can't say no to that bc I am a proud owner of a beer shirt, and that's a pretty good theme they got going on, so why the heck not get clothes there?! That women's section were full of cropped shirts, little sleeves which you may as well be wearing a sleeveless shirt, thin materials, floral=formal, and the whole section just seemed like ppl donated their clothes there.

I can't wait for autumn

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