14 months earlier

"Hey baby" i say looking at the screen in front of me were i see my angel. Although its only been 2 months i feel like its been years. She says something but the connection got scrambled.
"Whatd you say" i ask cupping my hand to my ear, a bad habit of mine.
"I love you dork" she says to me as she knows my times almost up.
"I love you too Jess" i say as im ushered up from the chair.
"Dammit, 2 minutes isnt enough" i say to no one in particular as i lie down on my bunk.
"Speak for yourself ive got 3 girls i gotta talk to in that time" Bear my bunkmate, from Alaska and a shorter guy but he seemed to be alright.
"Psssh shut the hell up bear" wall a good buddy of his and our driver said as he walked in, his turn on the webcam done. Wall was from Australia if i remember, he went to college but decided to enlist rather than be an officer, he was smart and he was a nice guy so we got along.
"Whats the matter doc" bear says looking down at me, the only thing i cant stand is that he calls me doc and lately walls been doing it too.
"Nothin just thinking about my fiance" i say taking her picture out of my wallet.
"I wouldnt put that in your wallet, theu take wallets in a few days until we are returned home" bears says putting his boonie cap over his face meaning not to bother him.
"Where do i put it then" i ask looking at bear.
"I keep mine in my kevlar" he says tapping his helmet.
"Thanks for the hint" i nod picking up my own helmet and putting her picture in it.
"Alright devil dogs listen up" an officer walks in the room as we all snap to attention.
"At ease men" he says as he walks to the center of our barracks.
"We're being sent in boys" he says with a fist in the air. We could barely hear any of the rest of his speech we were all yelling too loudly, excited for action. When suddenly everyones wounded, whether from an explosion or gunshot or anything, every last man i knew was lying on the floor calling for doc, for me.
I suddenly jolt awake seeing her worried brown eyes.
"You need to go to sessions honey" she says after i sit up.
"I will baby, ill go sign up tomorrow" i say so she doesnt worry.
"Promise" she asks as she hugs me from behind.
"Damn she knows me too well" i think to myself.
"I swear on my heart baby" i say lying back down, knowing i wasnt gonna sleep.
-----------4 days later------------

My first day of therapy with the doctor was today, jess came with to support me, and to make sure i didnt skip the sessions.
"God how she stays with me" i think to myself as i thought of how much slewp shes gotten in the last 2 weeks after seeing the bags under her eyes.
"Pettt officer Reaves" a nurse says, butchering my last name as most people do. I stand up and give jess one last hug before she heads off for work.
"Sit down please hero" he says patting a chair.
"Im not a hero" i say as i sit down.
"Thats not what ive read. Navy cross, nomination for the medal of honor twice-"
"And twice denied" i interrupt him irritated at how he went throigh my background, even though i shouldve expected him to.
"So you nightmares correct" he asks looking down at a paper and writes something down.
"Yes" i answer.
"Just nightmares he asks as he looms past his glasses and at me.
"That and i get aggarvated easier and im forgetful" i say getting irritated at all my problems.
"Well petty officer Reaves i would be cery confident to say you have a case of PTSD" he says looking at his paper.
"

So what? Perscription or what?" I ask slightly annoyed.
"No i cant perscribe you anything but i reccomend looking at ways of reducing the chance of an episode, i can give you sleeping aid pills though" he says writing a perscription for the pills.
"Thanks doc" i say not thinking when suddenly im back in the barracks, with blood, guts and all sorts of other entrails around me, bear to my left with multiple shrapnel wounds all over his body and to my right, wall with debris sticking through his neck, rebar i think. And i front of me, oh god......mendez, burnt and full of bulletholes is staring at me.