So I've been gone for a while.

Just got super busy.

Lol.

I have another chapter about my homecoming stuff so that'll hopefully be up later.

So.....

I'm super sick and I sound like a smoker :) that's adorable

Yesterday I had an xc meet. It was rainy, windy, stormy, etc, I'm super sick, why not die, lol.

My sickness is at its worst this whole year.

Right after my race I fucking collapsed on the ground from over-exhaustion and not being able to really breathe.

I was dry heaving. If you don't know what that is, it means you're puking literally nothing out because you have nothing in your stomach to throw up. For ten minutes straight I was sitting at a random lunch table outside throwing up nothing. If there was something to throw up, everything would've came up.

Cried four times during that day, no big deal.

Guess what?

Homecoming got postponed to next week :)

Even homecoming is forfeiting to us :)

Such sarcasm :)

If y'all didn't know, three teams forfeited to us because of being "afraid" to get injuries. They're just ducking scared to lose 100-0 like we did to the other two teams before everyone started forfeiting.

Look, we didn't even get a pink-out game for breast cancer awareness or a fucking homecoming game.

Totally the best senior year :)

Anyways, enough with the negative shit...

BAE hasn't been here the past two days.

On Wednesday he held the door for me when we were heading to our 4th period class :)

For homecoming spirit week, Wednesday was Star Wars, and towards the end of lunch a huge battle broke out because a bunch of seniors ran out in the courtyard with lightsabers and just started battling.

The funniest shit ever.

So Cece and I were laughing and cringing at the whole thing, and a few minutes before class starts we start walking to class. NGHB passed and I was like "See you later girl!" And I was a few feet behind him.

Like, five seconds later we get to class because our door is literally in front of the courtyard, and he literally opened the door WIDE OPEN.

MY HEART.

I was like "Thank you!" Super confidently. He was like "You're welcome."

I honestly love it when a guy holds a door open for a girl. It's just cute, even in a friendly genuine way, it's adorkable. Love it.

HOLD UP.

I think I know why I was so confident in saying that...

I know y'all gonna be disappointed with me.

But...

I don't think I have "feelings" for the guy anymore.

Maybe a TINY bit, but honestly when I noticed he was gone the past two days, I wasn't dreading it or missing him. Like, it was like "oh, he's gone, that sucks." Didn't have a second thought about him.

On Wednesday it was my moms birthday :D I checked my Twitter again and saw that NGHB ha made a post that said "Happy birthday to the best mom in the world."

Well that's extremely awkward.

Both of our moms are born on the same fucking day.

Then yesterday he posted a pic of him & his new best friend Ben saying happy birthday, and that he wished he was there to celebrate with him.

Ya know, the new guy named Ben.

Last week on Thursday, we had our first homecoming assembly. I straightened my hair and everything was just on point that day. Towards the end of the assembly, one of the senior asb leaders was telling everyone about the athletic updates. He was like "Go check out girls soccer tonight at home, as well as volleyball! Hey, don't forget, our cross country team has a meet later today too!~" and etc.

After he said cross country, NGHB looked at me a few times.

What's so important to look down at a clarinetist in a band? We had to sit in chairs IN FRONT OF EVERYONE IN THE BLEACHERS ON THE BASKETBALL COURT.

EW. MAKES ME SO UNCOMFORTABLE GAWD. I AM AN AWKWARD SOUL.

Oh well. I'll finish my other update hopefully this weekend.