23. Insanity, is normal
Mavis Pov.
I knew I was asking for a lot, but Zeref seemed so certain. He really is the greatest guy I know. He cares about me, truly. And I will forever love his caring heart.
Zeref Pov.
Knowing Mavis, she goes to extremes very quickly. So she probably never even thought about requesting a leave from the hospital.
Sure enough that was the case, and that was a much easier calm way to bring her to the tree.
My mind was whirling around and around. What was she going to tell me? She's going to confess to something. I held my breath. If she feels the need to do this, it can't be leading down a good path. But it also means, I need to listen.
The cold air picked up, chilling my body. Winter was in full stead now and it's dark atmosphere seemed to fit the occasion just perfectly.
"I forgot," Mavis coughs, "that this trail was so long." She's walking ahead of me, determined to look strong. Like nothing in the world is wrong with her. She's just not the best actress.
"Yeah, I sort of forgot too. I guess it's a lot nicer in the fall." I threw out a random remark. I just wanted to make conversation, hopefully it'd distract Mavis from any pain she felt.
"No, I still like it like this. It's just not as easy. But who said easy was the best way?" She gave a small laugh. I awkwardly laughed back. No one was able to take their minds off of what was about to happen. As the tree came into to sight my heart doubled it's pace. I was anxious, nervous, but also longing for an answer.
The tree's leaves were non existent now, it was just standing stilly against the dark cold sky. Snow was gently placed on it's branches and burying it's trunk. This scene, is all to fitting. I stare at Mavis, whose back is turned against me.
"So, I guess I just start talking huh?" She asks, her voice is a bit unsteady. I don't blame her for that though. She probably has an excellent reason.
"Go ahead. You can tell me anything." I tried to sound reassuring. I wanted to be completely there for her.
"Thanks Zeref. Ok, the doctors told me I'm... Very sick. I caught something very, destructive." She begins, starring up at the tree branches. "And, they had to let me know, it's dangerous. The worst part is though, we caught it late. So, that puts me in a worse situation." Her breathing stops, I can tell she's completely mortified.
"Ugh, yeah. I can tell. How-ugh, no, what's the-" I pause thinking carefully over what I should say.
"Don't be afraid, just ask me. I'll answer." Mavis tells me, still not facing me.
"Ok, thanks Mavis. What's the chances you'll, stay here?" I phrase it easily, speaking calmly. I'm not going to freak out, I can't. I want to stand sturdy, I want Mavis to know she can lean on me.
"20% chance I'll live." She speaks emotionlessly, but that's only hiding her true reasons. She didn't bring me out here to tell me this... Then why did she bring me out here. I don't know why, but I don't like those odds. It's not even half.
"I know, it's bad. Zeref, I don't want to just spend the time I have left in a hospital bed. Initially waiting for my demise." She explains, turning around. Her eyes are filled with tears, red and puffy. Her nose is runny, and the tips of her ears are being bitten by the wind. It's strange, even though she is a mess in these moments, I find her beautiful. Mavis is always stunning in my mind, I guess nothing really can change that.
"Then what do you want?" I ask her, staring directly into those green glowing eyes.
"I want," she steps closer towards me with no hesitation, "I want to ask you a question."
"Then ask."
She stares deeply into my eyes, not backing down. Staying strong and bold. The fighter, warrior she really is. What a fine leader she'd make. The optimism, and her heroic charm. I grab on to her hands, holding them tightly.
"Zeref, will you run away with me?" Surprise, shock, one again. Her question is insane. All the things she's asked of me lately has been out of mind. But, it's not out of nowhere. These desires of hers, aren't anything unexplainable. But, I don't know, if running away is the right answer.
"Mavis, I love you. Unconditionally. I'm not going to say you're everything to me, you're more than that. I'm so glad I met you, so glad I chased after you. Because I had this feeling when we first met. Like fate. You'd be something I would never be able to resist. Mavis, I want to be able to do anything for you, but running away, I can't do." I responded. She seems startled by my reply. I feel guilt for saying that, but I needed to let her know.
"W- why not?" She chokes. Despair appearing in her facial expression. Oh no, damn I should of just said yes. I can't screw things up with her, not now. Especially not now.
"Mavis, there are people you love. Are you sure you want to leave them all behind?" I ask her. She looks down at her feet, now in a sob.
"I don't know. Zeref, I don't know. I-I just want to be with you. Until time runs out. So promise me, please, you'll come visit me. Everyday. And we can still go out for walks, still hold hand, still be like how we are. I guess what I'm really asking you is, promise me you'll love me, even if I die." She let's it out. I feel the urge to cry welling up inside me. My eyes are watering. I wrapt my arms around her, in a close embrace.
"Mavis, there's no need to worry. Didn't I tell you? I love you unconditionally. It doesn't matter what fate has in store, I'm staying by your side. Understand that." I tell her. She cries heavily on my chest, her face staying hidden. She wipes away her tears in that shelter of my arms.
"I love you too. So much. I don't want to lose you, because you're the greatest guy I know. You're someone, who just seems to know what to say to me. All the time. Zeref, you're not perfect, but you're perfect to me." She grips on to me tightly. I rest my chin on her head.
"You're perfect for me." I whisper. We stay in each other's arms until all the tears are done being shed. That, took a long time. Mavis broke apart from the hug, breathing heavily.
"I guess, we should head back." She didn't sound enthusiastic.
"Actually, if this is our last time here, I need to ask you something too." I say, searching around. I'm unprepared, but I need to do this. I need to.
"Oh, what?" She tilts her head to the left.
"I'm sorry because it's going to seem so sudden and absolutely insane." I apologize, giving a warning before hand. She laughs at my remark.
"Zeref, I just asked you to brake me out of a hospital. Then to run away with me. How insane can this question really be?" She smiles at me. My heart skips a beat.
"Trust me, it's really insane." I say, "but if I never get the chance to do it again, I'd regret it. So," I bent down on one knee. Her eyes light up, getting the idea in a heart beat.
"Mavis, will you marry me?"
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