So why I think the way I do, just wanted to talk about this for a bit because sometimes I feel as if some people don't really understand my mind set.

There's many people living in this world we live in, from stuff I've watched like the news, I see that you need to be born with something to be a meaning to the world.

Some say you need to try but with how I live, I've been around people who have tried many times but failed over and over. All I do is read and write but I'm a complete loner because I just don't trust people any more.

I have trust issues because of the people I've grown up with, I've had friends yes, but they've all ending up using me for their own greed to get what they want and then just ditch me. If I'm going to be honest with you guys, I'm not trying to be mean but I don't fully trust all of you either.

Please don't take that the wrong way, you guys are the best but I've built up my walls pretty strong.

I just don't want to be hurt again you know?

When people talk trash about me now, I agree with them and carry on my merry way, not caring what they said about me.

It's super, SUPER rare to see me cry.

I've learned that crying is for the weak, the only time I don't see it as that is when my friends cry...as long it's not for a stupid reason.

Yet I have no friends, just you guys who I can only talk to if I have my phone.

Heh, I'm pathetic I know but I don't even care.

It doesn't help that my brother always pulls me and my own mother down, calling us stuff like a waste of space, useless, fat b!tches and ugly c**ts.

Shouting at us and breaking everything in the house, why do you think I have posters on my door?

It's to cover all the holes my brother has punched in them because he was angry at us.

You guys can judge, call me stupid, I don't care.

I never really have.

Sorry if I seem mean guys, it's just how I've grown up and how people have treated me.

I'll go now.

(Yeah, I like Skillet)

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