I have avoided to speak about this topic for a few months now. But, I don't have any more options, other people around me would be mad if I said how I feel.

Lately, I've been given the impression that people around me think I can't do anything and don't want to either. This drove me to the thought that I really can't do anything, and stopped working hard on things I actually can do and stopped trying.

This made me emotional because so many feelings bottled up inside me each day. I let everything out, and then my parents and my siblings say a girl my age shouldn't be acting like that.

I tried to control myself multiple times but just can't. I'm in the opinion that if you can't do anything about something, people should stop being angry at you if it happens again.

Things I often hear are:
"You're lazy, do something for once!"
"No wonder you are being bullied in your class."
"Stop being so selfish."
"Stop whining!"

I don't have anyone to talk to except you guys. My "friends" would think I'm overreacting, my family would think I'm childish.

Sorry if I caused trouble. I hope you understand. But please don't fall into the same hole I do.