/Insecurity/

Sorry for updating late ghfhgd i h8 school and bcos i had writer's  block ugh

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Jihoon watched as his newly 2-week boyfriend, Soonyoung being once again surrounded by his fangirls in the high school campus' hallway as he was going to his morning classes. Now don't get him wrong, he too was popular because of his adorable features and musical abilities, but it's just that his boyfriend was more outgoing and friendly to others.

Their relationship was just recently established since being the typical Jihoon he is, one would have to break down several walls before being able to completely stick around him all the time without being hit or annoyed by him.

"Ah Soonyoung-oppa!!" Some girl said.

"You look so handsome oppa!!" Another girl shouted.

"Aren't you single oppa? Let's go out!" Some bitchy girl flirtingly shouted.

That ticked Jihoon off; that was the problem of their relationship, it was official and legitimate however they didn't make it public yet. Thus the both of them being prone to confessions and flirts. Although Jihoon established that he was off-limits and wasn't interested in going out.

Soonyoung being himself, and completely being oblivious to the girls (and guys) flirting with him. This only made Jihoon more pissed, but behind that pissed-off facade, he was mostly hurt and felt insecure because what if Soonyoung realizes he's wasting his time and found a better person to be with.

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It has been established by the both of them that they'd go with each other, every time the bell rings and that's when they'd have to take their lunch break or go home. But this day, some changes will occur.

After anxiously watching Soonyoung be surrounded with girls who were flirting with him, Jihoon decided to have lunch and go home by himself and not wait for the older anymore.

As Jihoon heard the bell ring that signified it was lunch time. He quickly fixed his items to bring with him since didn't feel like  eating nor being with someone right now. He decided to proceed to the library and just spend his lunch break there, reading some books or just simply listening to music and do some schoolwork. However he was stopped when he heard a familiar voice shouting his name.

Jihoon quickened his pace in walking through the hallways, he looked back a bit and saw that familiar mop of dark violet hair, once again having girls behind him squealing.

The smaller sighed as he walked fastly towards the library, hoping that Soonyoung got lost in the crowd. He sighed gratefully when he noticed no Soonyoung was following him. He contentedly sighed once again as he pushed open the glass door that led him to inside the library.

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Soonyoung could just pout slightly as he saw his smaller boyfriend be lost in the crowd of people. He turned his back and faced the girls who were following him, he made the initiative to shoo them away since he wanted to hang out with his friends, hoping his boyfriend would be there too. Reluctantly, the girls forcedly left.

He walked towards the direction of the cafeteria and saw his group of friends. Unfortunately, there was no Jihoon seated. He sighed for the nth time, he thought he might have went somewhere to have his personal space and time.

"Why the long face Soonyoung-ah?" Seokmin said, taking a bite out of his sandwich.

"Yeah, why so sad dude? You have so much girls chasing around you though." Seungkwan smirked.

"But I want my Jihoonie only" Soonyoung thought, also remembering how Jihoon and him haven't said their relationship to their friends yet.

"Because i think hoonie is mad at me?" Soonyoung unsurely and dejectedly said, slouching his body on the table.

"Isn't that normal though? But then I think he is more lenient with you these days." Seungkwan said.

Soonyoung could just groan in response. He skipped his lunch, overthinking what he did wrong.

Afternoon classes went on that day, with both Jihoon and Soonyoung not being able to completely focus.

The bell rang and both were cut off of their dazes. Jihoon once again hurriedly packed his stuff, avoiding Soonyoung to catch up to him and have both of them go home together.

He pushed through the sea of people in the hallway, rushing to go home or others to go to parties since it is a Friday.

Jihoon luckily was able to avoid his boyfriend and rushed to get home. He tripped in the process and scraped his knee in a small area. He didn't mind this and continued his way home, limping a bit.

Upon getting home, he shut the door locked and went up the stairs and into his room. He changed into a comfy shirt and short that stopped to the place right above the knees.

He noticed the small scrape in his knee, he quickly cleaned it and put a white cloth patch on it after applying some ointment.

He was about to rest in his bed and maybe sleep or just simply use his phone. And of course, to purposely ignore Soonyoung as well.  But he got shocked when his phone started ringing loudly.

The ringtone being blasted right was of course familiar to Jihoon. It was his boyfriend's after all. He decided to ignore the call he was getting, and after that, tons of notifications popped up in his phone screen. Some were from awhile ago, he might've not noticed because of his rushing.

Youngie 

Jihoon wer are you??

3: 16

Why didn't you wait for me hun :c

3:17

Are you mad at me for something??

3:19

I hope you got home safely babe

3:22

Okay screw that im omw to ur house rn

3:25

Pls open the door hoonie.

Now

Jihoon had a small heart attack as he read the text messages. 'What the hell is Soonyoung doing right now.' Jihoon thought.

"Doesn't he get the message? He's seriously the last person I want to see right now." Jihoon groaned frustratedly, as he got up, limping a bit because of his knee. He looked out his window and saw the figure of the older knocking on his door. Jihoon could just sigh at his attempts. He brought out his phone and texted the older.

To: Youngie 

Stop it

3:50

Im not gonna let you in so pls just leave

3:51

I dont really wanna see you rn

3:52

See you on Monday i guess

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Soonyoung furrowed his eyebrows together as he read the messages from Jihoon. He stopped his desperate knockings and callings to text his lover back.

To: My precious bean

What do you mean you dont wanna see me ?? :(

4:00

Crap, im really sorry if i did smth wrong

4:01

Okay since youre not opening the door nor replying to my texts, im gonna do smth

4:05

Jihoon almost dropped his phone, he knows Soonyoung well. He was bound to do something stupid. He got up to check from the window but was even more shocked when he opened the binds.

He saw Soonyoung's figure trying to balance himself on a thick branch of a tree in front of their house.

He quickly opened the window to let Soonyoung in, and upon letting him in his room, he smacked Soonyoung's head really hard.

"What the hell were you doing?! Are you a monkey or something?? You could've gotten badly hurt you know that?!" Jihoon yelled at his careless boyfriend.

Soonyoug could just let himself be scolded by Jihoon as he shrugged it off.

"If thats what it takes to see you, then I don't mind at all." Soonyoung said as he begins to walk closer to the smaller.

Jihoon could just walk backwards but was unfortunately had his tracks stopped by one of the bedroom walls. He winced a bit from the impact and because of his scraped knee.

Soonyoung quickly backed up a bit and worriedly scanned his boyfriend. He saw one of his knee patched up and immediately had worry wash over him.

"What happened here??" Soonyoung frantically asked. He looked at the smaller, waiting for his answer.

"I scraped my knee on my way here." Jihoon shrugged a bit.

"Oh no baby, was this because of me?? Were you rushing to go home because of me?" Soonyoung sadly and worriedly asked.

"Yes" Jihoon wanted to say that but decided not to.

"No, it wasn't because of you, its just my carelessness." Is what Jihoon said.

"But them why were you avoiding me the whole day today? Did i do anything wrong?" Soonyoung said as he cupped the younger's face.

But before Jihoon even knew, hot tears started to stream down on his face.

A pang of guilt and worry was what Soonyoung felt as his saw his boyfriend cry. As he knows that his lover barely cries.

He quickly wiped off Jihoon's tears and asked what was wrong.

"Don't you get it?! Its all because of you!" Jihoon frustratedly shouted.

Soonyoung could just furrow his eyebrows once more as he stare at his boyfriend's face.

"Oh no bubs, what did I do wrong? Soonyoung worriedly said.

"You stupid idiot! Why can't you get it?"

Jihoon heaved a breathe before continuing. "I'm feeling insecured and down because of how oblivious you are!"

"I just have this sick feeling in my gut that you'll leave me for someone who's better than me, who doesn't hurt you every single time they see you, who's much prettier than me, who's everything that's not me."

Soonyoung could just fazely stand there, he was unsure of what to say, he might say something stupid and might to lead to further complications. This situation never happened to him and Jihoon yet

"Jihoon baby, I didn't mean to make you insecure or jealous or whatsoever. They probably still didn't get the message, since we haven't announced our relationship publicly." Soonyoung tried to calmly explain to the smaller.

"But then why didn't you even try to tell them off? Did you like making me uneasy or insecure?!" Jihoon said with more tears streaming down his face.

"Oh baby please stop crying. I would never do that, the last thing I want to do to you is to hurt you." Soonyoung replied back.

Soonyoung paused awhile before resuming. "Hoonie babe, know that you are and will always be the number one in my heart. I love you so much, you don't know how much you mean to me, and how much I love you. You're the most beautiful and perfectly imperfect person I know, don't mind the others, and focus on me and my love for you. And I'm sorry for making you feel that way. I just love you so much Jihoonie."

After Soonyoung's long sweet speech for his boyfriend, Jihoon has already stopped crying and was actually about to cry again, but he stopped himself.

Soonyoung initiated a hug between them and Jihoon gratefully accepted.

"I'm sorry for overreacting, and for this, well this whole mess." Jihoon said while his face was buried in Soonyoung's chest.

"Oh no baby, it's okay, I'm also part to blame." Sooyoung said caressing Jihoon's hair.

"How about this babe, we make our relationship public on Monday, to have people back off." Soonyoung added.

"Yeah, I would like that." Jihoon said before leaning up to kiss Soonyoung's lip which happily complied to.

The next Monday, they made their relationship public, people understood and respected this. And to the people who were still persistent, well Jihoon easily and scarily flicked them off.

Well, he was Soonyoung's boyfriend and he does love him so he felt more assured.


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Thank you sm for readingg. Thanks rene for inspiring me in writing this chapter <3 oH AND CARATLAND YALL, SM SOONHOON MOMENTS HAPPENED, IM SCREAMINGG AHH lol but anyways hope yall enjoyed! votes and comments are deeply appreciated :>

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