I haven't had this app since October-December 2019

I just downloaded it again and I was able to recover my old account.

I've changed so much. People really think that what I went through with gender dysphoria and identifying as trans was fake. (Most of those horrible comments came from the lgbtq community)

Yet, everything I was doing and experiencing was saying it was real. Most of my social media, I was out of the closet and Zepeto was an app I was able to express the type of clothes and stuff I wanted to be able to pass and feel comfortable with myself.

My old name was Nico which expressed more masculinity. Momo was more neutral and it's still an alias I use because I've had it for so long and I like peaches.

But really this is for testimony purposes, I can't make people believe that God changed me and that it was for the better. I no longer am being tormented by gender dysphoria, shouldn't people be glad and even want the same deliverance ❓

I haven't been able to ask these questions and get a good answer from people who are in the lgbtq community.

The only answer I've gotten that I can remember and have seen is similar to, "I'm trans, that's who I am." And people don't go further than that. Like, "accept me or you're a bigot."

That answer is one I used a lot back then and I've seen a pattern with others as well.

But then I always questioned whether what I was going through was fake and I always wondered why it was so wrong to be trans. "Isn't this who I am?" And "How can I be faking this?"

And it was like, whatever identity I took on was either the wrong one, uncomfortable, or broken.

I'm afab (a female at birth) and I was hurt in many different ways from childhood all the way up until I was 18 or 19. I dealt with a lot of rejection and I was very insecure and hated myself. I didn't want to be a girl, I wanted to run away from myself but I couldn't.

I felt disconnected from myself and uncomfortable in my own body and began to think, "Maybe I was born in the wrong body." And this became another torment for me which made me go into gender dysphoria.

I began to explore different pronouns even more and which identity I was more comfortable with.

I expressed a lot of masculinity and a mixture of femininity as well. I showed the type of outfits I wanted but wasn't able to have because they were mostly for men. I also liked pink and wondered why men couldn't like pink.

I also celebrated Halloween and Christmas which is something I don't do anymore.

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Here's my current Zepeto character which is more close to what I look like. I couldn't find a lot of curly hairstyles, so this one is probably one I'll use until I find something better. I'm still getting used to it and I have to have coins to buy more clothes so it's limited for now.

The most recent outfit I posted. I still like pink, lol
I captioned it, cute and modest ☁️ ✨
Semi-formal

I might post more Zepeto on here while talking about God, the Bible, and life, I'm unsure.

But if any of you all have questions about my testimony, you can either ask here or look at previous chapters that have (testimony) and/or 🏳️‍⚧️ in the title.

~Bee

November 21, 2024