WARNING: Slight Cussing in this.
Edited: 2/9/2017
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Great it's raining, it just makes things more upsetting for us. Zeref and I just got home from a dinner party with some friends. It was nice, but I knew he was upset over Him showing up. Him and I used to be great friends and Zeref knew him as well, but he's always been jealous. All night Him and I were talking about some random stuff and he would from time to time ask me some weird stuff, but what't to be shy about their just words, they can't hurt anyone or anything right? I know he has this 'problem', but really there's nothing wrong with a little jealously, it just shows how much you really care about the other person.

Right now neither of us are talking or even sitting next to each other. He's just starring out the window, watching the rain. I'm on the couch just waiting for him to say something or do anything, but I don't think I'm gonna get that, not right now. All I hear is the ticking from the clock hanging on the wall, it just a reminder of what is to come, a count-down.

"I'm gonna make some tea. Want some?"

He doesn't say anything or even move, he just stays put. Standing up, I walk into the kitchen an grab the kettle to fill with water and turn on the stove. I still hear the ticking in the house, but somehow it feels like its getting louder. Putting the kettle down, I start looking for some tea bags, the water starts to hiss quietly, another thing to remind me on what's to come.

"What kind should we have tonight?"

Nothing again. why bother anymore. Bitting the inside of my mouth I grab green tea and honey. The kettle starts getting louder, and the ticking seems to be speeding up, it's coming soon I just know it, but what will make him finally break so we can talk? Hearing my phone ring I set what's in my hand aside and see that it Him calling me. Found it. I see him move finally and come over to me. Yanking the phone out of my hand he sees His name on the screen, the kettle screams letting me know that it's done.

"Gotta answer it. Here."

He hands my phone back and goes towards the bedroom, Did he just say that to me? Putting my phone down, I follow right after him. Nearing the door I hear something like mumbling, peering threw the door, I see him pacing with clenched fits and talking to himself. I really hate seeing him like this, but what can I do if he doesn't tell me how he feels.

"You just gonna stand there or are you gonna come in."

I push open the door and stand in the door frame with my arms hugging my chest. If I  step in, I could end up saying I will regret,but fighting is better then no fighting right?  Stepping in I can feel the bad energy coming from him, but I have to get this over with, I love him and I want him to be happy and I want to feel better too.

"So, what's wrong Mavis?"

"What?"

Looking up at him, his face is blank but his eyes are darker then ever, that scary person that lives in him wants out but he won't let him. I've only seen it one other time and I was scared and confused. I did't know if I should yell back or just let him be, but now that I see it once more, I want him back so I can let mine out as well.

"What's wrong?"

"You tell me, you haven't said one word to me sense we got back from the party and the first thing say to me is answer Him. What the hell Zeref!

"He was calling and it's not nice to ignoring people"

That little voice in my head is picking at me, telling me to let go and have it take over, but I halfto hold off, if it wins who knows what will happen. Once again his eyes are getting darker, he must be having the same war like I am, but he's better holding it back unlike me.

"Like I could really care about His call."

"Well you didn't hit decline right away."

"Well next time when I get a call from Him, I'll let you tell me what todo will that be better for you."

From the tone in my voice, I know I'm losing my battle, but it needs to happen. Looking at his hands, there whiter than ever. He's holding back, he doesn't want to say something he knows will hurt me, but him not telling me how he really feels is hurting me more. Threw gritted teeth he says "No." Zeref  why are you doing this to yourself?

"You know, the longer you don't say anything, the longer your gonna be like this."

"It's nothing."

"That's a lie and you know it."

Just say it already Zeref, let's end this now. That ticking noise is back and this time its my own warning, it's letting me know when I'm going to snap. I'm not fine with him holding things in. I'm his girlfriend, and he needs to talk to me whether he like it or not.

"You must really hate me,huh Zeref?"

"What kind of a question is that?"

"Well let's see, we've barley talked and now you refuse to let me help you. So yeah you hate me. Problem solved."

Now were getting somewhere, he now has emotion on his face and it's one with annoyance. He's hands have color back in them and that other side of him is smirking at me in his eyes, letting me know if I say one more thing he's coming out. Let him.

"Mavis, leave me alone. Okay."

"Like hell I will!"

I've snappend and now he has too. That look of refusal is now one of anger and our formal selves are gone, now our little demons can fight it out now. He steps closer to me and peers down on me, I give him a pissed off look when I see him, showing him that I'm not scared on what's to come.

"Get out Mavis!"

"If you want me out, your going have to physically pick me up and throw me out."

"If you're not gonna leave then I will. Move!"

He tries to get around me, but I stand right in the door frame with my arms open wide, He knows all he has to do is just push right threw me, he's a lot taller and stronger then me, but I'm strong in my own way.

"Get out of the way!"

"I'm not moving till you tell me what the hell is wrong with you!"

"That Fucken guy is my problem, there happy."

I shake my head no. I need more out of him.

"What about Him. You think just saying that is going to let you off the hook?!"

"Move."

His voice is dark and it doesn't even sound like his own, he's really gone for the moment.

"You know what you need todo to get me to move. Do it, I dare you."

"Bad move."

He bends down and grabs me by the legs and throws me over his shoulder. I squirm in his grip and hit his back over and over. Reaching the hallway that leads to the living room, he throws me on the couch and heads towards the front door, I sit up only too see his back facing me. Gripping the couch, that lump in my throat form. His hand touches the doorknob and starts turning.

"You walk out that door, this will prove my point on you hating me. You told me that you'd never leave...keep your word Zeref."

Were back to nothing now, no noise, no talking, no ticking. Nothing, all I hear are the sound of my tears hitting the couch.

"What do you really think I'm going todo with Him? Leave you, Cheat on you? If that's what you think,it just shows me that you don't trust me as much as I trust you. I feel like when I tell you that I love you and only you, you don't believe me, it goes in one ear and out the other."

"That's not true, none of that is true Mavis. I know you love me and I believe you. I just don't trust other guys around you. I keep thinking why are you still here. Are you here to keep me happy or are you tying to find a nice way to leave me. Every time we talk it just seems like your distant from me, I've pushed you away from me and no matter how hard I try I can't get you back."

"You know that's not true, I'm still here. You think I like seeing you like this? Do you think its nice knowing that I'm the reason you're feeling like this? I knew you have this problem and here I am fueling it. I'm just to nice to people, I trust to easily and I always end up hurting someone."

This is all my fault, I'm making him feel like this. All the plans we've made are slipping from my hand and I fear that he'll relies he doesn't need me and leave me for someone who won't betray him and gives him the kind of love he needs.

"If you want to leave, then go ahead. I won't blame you, the way I've been treating you I deserve to be alone and you deserve to be happy. Just know I'm still going to love you no matter what, you're the best thing that has happened to me in a long time. I never wanted to make you feel insecure about us, I love us and I love you."

My face is now covered in tears, my head even hurts from how I was crying in silents. My eyes hurt along with my nose. I slump down with my back facing him. Now I don't hold back the noise, I let it all out, what is heard now is me crying and hiccuping. I didn't even bother to hear Zeref come and crouch down in front of me. He lifts my face up and cups my cheeks with his hands, he uses his thumbs to wipe away the tears. He too is also crying and it breaks me again.

"I'm scared Zeref."

"Why's that?"

"I'm scared that the more we fight the closer we are to breaking up and I can't live with that."

He quickly sits next to me and hugs me close to him. My head rests right on top of his chest, hearing his heart calms me. He strokes my hair and kisses the top of my head.

"I'm not going anywhere, I told you that. I love you to much to leave you alone. Your mine and that's how it's going to be for a ver long time. I'm so sorry."

"I'm sorry too, Just promise me when you feel like this again, you talk to me."

"I promise."

Moving my head to look up at him, we share a long and comforting kiss. Knowing that he's here with me and not leaving me ever makes me feel so much better. We may fight and get into arguments over things, but fighting tells the other person that you care and your scared to lose them.

I really do love him, I'd go to the ends of the earth just to be with him forever and I know he would do the same for me. Love is a crazy thing and it doesn't come with a handbook. Everyone has issues, but if you work them out then everything is better in the end.

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I'm sorry that was very long and depressing.  I didn't want that to be the first thing you see from me after a short break, but I feel better now. Anyway, hope you like it :)