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I ғᴇᴇʟ ʀɪᴅɪᴄᴜʟᴏᴜs ᴡʀɪᴛɪɴɢ ᴛʜɪs ᴅᴏᴡɴ-- ɪ'ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ sᴜᴘᴘᴏsᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴜsᴇ ᴛʜɪs ʟᴏɢ ғᴏʀ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛʜɪs, ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴇʟsᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ. I ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ғᴀʟʟ ᴀsʟᴇᴇᴘ. Tʜᴇʀᴇ's ᴛᴏᴏ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴏɴ ᴍʏ ᴍɪɴᴅ ʀɪɢʜᴛ ɴᴏᴡ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ғᴏʀᴇғʀᴏɴᴛ ᴏғ ɪᴛ ɪs ʏᴏᴜ, ᴀɴᴅ ɴɪɴᴀ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴇsᴛ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʀᴇᴡ. Lᴀʀs ʟɪᴋᴇs ᴛᴏ ᴛᴇʟʟ ᴍᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡʀɪᴛɪɴɢ ɪs ᴀ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ᴡᴀʏ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ᴏᴜᴛ. I ᴅɪᴅɴ'ᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ɢᴇᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ʜᴇ ᴍᴇᴀɴs. Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ sᴀʏ sᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ, ᴊᴜsᴛ sᴀʏ ɪᴛ, ʏᴏᴜ ᴋɴᴏᴡ? Bᴜᴛ ɪɴ ʟɪɢʜᴛ ᴏғ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴᴇᴅ, I ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴢᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴʟʏ ᴘᴇʀsᴏɴ ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴀʟᴋ ᴛᴏ ɪs ʏᴏᴜ, Eʟᴀʀᴀ, ᴀɴᴅ ɴᴏᴡ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ, sᴏ I'ᴍ ᴡʀɪᴛɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛs ᴏᴜᴛ ɪɴsᴛᴇᴀᴅ. I'ᴠᴇ sᴇᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴏ sᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ sɪᴍɪʟᴀʀ, ɪ ᴀssᴜᴍᴇ, ᴡʜᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜʀᴇ ᴡʀɪᴛɪɴɢ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʟɪᴛᴛʟᴇ ʟᴇᴀᴛʜᴇʀ ʙᴏᴏᴋ ᴏғ ʏᴏᴜʀs. Yᴇᴀʀs ᴀɢᴏ, ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ғɪʀsᴛ sᴀᴡ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴏ ɪᴛ, ɪ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ғᴜɴ ᴏғ ʏᴏᴜ ғᴏʀ ɪᴛ, ʀᴇᴍᴇᴍʙᴇʀ? Lᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ɴᴏᴡ, ʜᴜʜ?
Aɴʏᴡᴀʏ, ɪ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ sᴛᴏᴘ ғᴇᴇʟɪɴɢ ɢᴜɪʟᴛʏ. I ᴋɴᴏᴡ ʏᴏᴜ'ᴅ sᴀʏ ɪᴛs ɴᴏᴛ ᴍʏ ғᴀᴜʟᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜ'ᴅ ᴅʀɪʟʟ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀᴅ ᴜɴᴛɪʟ ɪ ʙᴇʟɪᴇᴠᴇᴅ ɪᴛ ᴍʏsᴇʟғ, ʙᴜᴛ ɪғ ᴡᴇ'ᴅ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ sᴛᴇᴘᴘᴇᴅ ᴏɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴀᴛ sʜɪᴘ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ғɪʀsᴛ ᴘʟᴀᴄᴇ, ʏᴏᴜ ᴀɴᴅ ɴɪɴᴀ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ɢᴏᴛᴛᴇɴ ʜᴜʀᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ᴡᴇ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅɴᴛ ʙᴇ ɪɴ ᴛʜɪs ᴍᴇss. Iᴛ's ғᴜɴɴʏ. I'ᴠᴇ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ ᴀ ʟᴏᴛ ᴏғ ᴛʜɪɴᴋɪɴɢ-- sʜᴏᴄᴋᴇʀ, ʀɪɢʜᴛ-- ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ. I ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴛʜɪɴᴋɪɴɢ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴀsᴛ ғᴇᴡ ʏᴇᴀʀs, ɪ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴛʜɪɴᴋɪɴɢ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʀᴇᴡ, I ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴛʜɪɴᴋɪɴɢ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴍᴇ, ᴀɴᴅ ʜᴏᴡ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴏғ ᴀɴ ɪᴅɪᴏᴛ I'ᴠᴇ ʙᴇᴇɴ ғᴏʀ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴢɪɴɢ ᴄᴇʀᴛᴀɪɴ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴍʏsᴇʟғ sᴏᴏɴᴇʀ. I ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴛʜɪɴᴋɪɴɢ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʜᴏᴡ ɪ ᴡɪsʜ ɪ ᴡᴀsɴᴛ sᴏ ғᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ɢʀᴇᴇᴅʏ, ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ᴅɪᴅɴ'ᴛ ғᴇᴇʟ ᴛʜᴇ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏs ᴛʀʏ ᴀɴᴅ ɢᴇᴛ sᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ɪ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴀᴄʀᴏss, ʙᴜᴛ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ sᴀᴍᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇ, ɪ ᴡɪsʜ ɪ ᴡᴀs ɢʀᴇᴇᴅʏ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ᴡᴀɴᴛ, ᴛᴏ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʟᴇᴀᴘ.
I ᴋɴᴏᴡ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴇᴠᴇʀ sᴇᴇ ᴛʜɪs, ᴀɴᴅ ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛs ғᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴇsᴛ. Tʜɪs ʟᴏɢ ɪs ᴇxᴛʀᴇᴍᴇʟʏ ᴄʟᴏsᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴜʀɴɪɴɢ ɪɴᴛᴏ sᴏᴍᴇ ᴋɪɴᴅ ᴏғ sᴀᴅ ʟᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ, sᴏ I'ʟʟ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴛʜɪs ᴇɴᴅɪɴɢ ʙʀɪᴇғ.
Iᴍ ᴀ ᴍᴇss, ᴀɴᴅ sᴏ ɪs ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʀᴇᴡ. Iᴛs ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴀ ᴍᴏɴᴛʜ sɪɴᴄᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀɴᴅ ɴɪɴᴀ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ᴛᴀᴋᴇɴ, ᴀɴᴅ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇɴᴛ sᴛᴏᴘᴘᴇᴅ ᴛʀʏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ғɪɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛᴡᴏ. I ᴘʀᴏᴍɪsᴇ ɪ ᴡᴏɴ'ᴛ sᴛᴏᴘ ᴜɴᴛɪʟ ʏᴏᴜʀᴇ ғᴏᴜɴᴅ, ᴡʜᴇᴛʜᴇʀ ʏᴏᴜʀᴇ ғᴏᴜɴᴅ ᴀʟɪᴠᴇ ᴏʀ...ɴᴏᴛ. Wʜᴀᴛᴇᴠᴇʀ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴠᴀɴɢᴜᴀʀᴅ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴘᴀʏ ғᴏʀ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇʏ'ᴠᴇ ᴅᴏɴᴇ.
Aɴᴅ Eʟᴀʀᴀ-- I ᴘʀᴏᴍɪsᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴏɴᴇ ᴅᴀʏ ɪ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴛᴇʟʟ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛʜᴇsᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ɪɴ ᴘᴇʀsᴏɴ, ʙᴜᴛ ғᴏʀ ɴᴏᴡ, ᴛʜɪs'ʟʟ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ.
I ᴍɪss ʏᴏᴜ.
I ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ.

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