(A/N: hehe make sure to listen to the song as you read. keep it on repeat hihi)

it's crazy. it was damn crazy. granting your husband that one favor he asked that you know will crush you in the end and mess up with your feelings even more. what made jungwoo grant this wish?

he panted and tried not to cry. his nose was hurting trying to keep his tears in. he covered his mouth hoping he can tone down his sobs. lucas looked at him. their bare bodies felt the cool fabric of the sheets under them.

what was that one favor?

"well..." lucas started. "i guess it's time to divorce." he finally said.

jungwoo looked at his husband. he pursed his lips and and closed his eyes. "it's been the time for years."

"i just have one favor." lucas said. and jungwoo turned to him as he said that one favor like he has gone completely mad.

what was that one favor? "can we spend the night one last time? like husbands would."

maybe it's a good thing. maybe it's for the best, somehow. maybe this could be that one reminder of what they had that they would tell their children in the future. their children that they have with different husbands.

apparently, lucas didn't state any reason but jungwoo agreed to have sex for the current night. hopefully, for them, it's a way to get it out of their system.

lucas lightly stroked his husbands waist as he tried to please him. his head that were encased by jungwoo's milky thighs were already doing miracles in jungwoo's body. it was sending his system to go wild.

good god, if i knew sex with him would be this good, i would've confessed long ago. they shared the same thoughts.

lucas' fingers found their way to jungwoo's hole as his mouth sucked on his length vigorously. "oh god, lucas." the older moaned.

his toes were curling, his fingers were clutching on the sheets, his head was being thrown back. all of the college fantasies he used to think about his husband right now came rushing back. all these happening because he has his husband to please him now. but the next day, it'll all be gone. he knows it.

one finger became two, then three, until four fingers were up his ass coated in lube penetrating his tight heat. in and out, they worked their way in until that one spot was repeatedly hit.

the chinese man stopped everything he did to jungwoo and climbed back up to see his face. "you're allowed to touch me. i'm giving you permission to touch me." he whispered.

the tears were evidently welling up the older's eyes. both his hands found their way to his husband's face, softly caressing and admiring his flawless features. "you're beautiful." jungwoo mumbled.

"and you're ethereal." lucas whispered back.

lucas stared at him right in the eyes, unbeknownst to jungwoo that the cock was already lining up against his hole. the cold material of lucas' necklace met with jungwoo's bare chest. of course jungwoo knew what it was--as his face was inside it.

jungwoo first took in the feeling of having that earth locket against his skin. it sure has been a while since he last saw that as lucas always hit it inside his shirt. he was also confused as to why lucas has it now.

but lucas has worn it ever since he had it. he didn't tell jungwoo but he picked the earth necklace out of a reason. a reason he couldn't tell jungwoo but he could tell the media. when the media asked, he answered with "because he is my world."

lucas' length was pushed in and jugnwoo gasped at the feeling. his eyes were shot open and mouth hanging wide. "oh god!" he whisper-yelled.

it took lucas a couple more seconds before he could pull out. he pushed in for another one and jungwoo ended up slowly humming loud. lucas, then, stole a kiss to make his husband look back at him. when jungwoo did, lucas went back to devouring the lips once more. this time, he went in for a much longer lip-locking moment,

with busy lips, it was a way for lucas to start rocking his hips against the other's. but instead of pure pain, jungwoo started feeling pleasure mixed with it. until all he felt was pure pleasure.

one hand held his thigh as the other balanced the body against the mattress. nothing really makes sex more intimate besides a kiss. surely, because a kiss is not only intimate, but it is personal.

around the room, the only thing could be heard was skin slapping against each other. the two legs caging lucas went tighter around his torso at the chinese man went even harder. jungwoo didn't think of anything else, not the marriage, not the divorce, just lucas. lucas that was on top of him giving him all of the heavens. and that same man who was giving him hell.

it was the same man that broke his heart. he can't believe he was having sex with the only man that broke his heart.

since the entering of his dick inside jungwoo, no words were exchanged between the two until the other whispered, "oh god, you feel so good."

he shouldn't cry during sex. it's like being broken up during sex, and what could possibly be worse than that?

a few more thrusts and they both came. they came panting, heavy breaths were like a breeze against their faces. they held onto each other like it was the last time. jungwoo couldn't pull back. as much as he wanted too, his body didn't seem to get the message.

he held onto his husband because the moment he lets go was the moment it will be over.

an hour after their intercourse, jungwoo and lucas were tangled across the sheets under the covers. lucas softly caressed his husbands face as he slept peacefully against his bare chest. jungwoo caged him with his arms as if he was going to disappear. but he will.

he didn't dare try to wake up his sleeping husband. all possible things that could possibly wake him up were toned down. ringing phones, housekeeping, room services. it was just them, laying silently, taking in the presence of each other.

"i can't believe we're getting divorced." lucas said softly, stared at the ceiling. "never in a million years did i imagine us breaking apart."

"i thought we were both okay with our set up like this." he rubbed his husband's shoulders lightly. "i thought i could keep feelings and emotions away from this business marriage. i was wrong though."

"i tried so hard to not fall for you, to ignore all the signs, to keep my feelings away. i didn't realize i was already hurting you in the process."

"i'm sorry jungwoo." lucas shed a tear as he said that. "i'm sorry i made you miserable." he choked out a sob quietly and gulped in.

"i love you. but if this is what you really want, i guess it really is time to divorce."

he took in a deep breath and discreetly got up. he got dressed as fast as he can just to get out of there and not see his husband anymore. perhaps he was going back to china after sorting out everything in korea.

once he did get dressed, he walked closer to his husband and crouched down next to the bed. "i love you." lucas whispered as he played with jungwoo's soft locks.

all his life, he wanted to hear that from the man. he wanted to hear it so very badly, but it never came. it only did when they got married and people were looking—the media were looking. he didn't exactly know how to react but he kept his position still. he continued pretending to be asleep because he knows he couldn't face lucas right now.

lucas wanted to fix the relationship they both had that's why he followed him to bali. for jungwoo, he probably guessed that he wanted to keep the public act for his parents. but it was all real for the chinese man. he wanted the real thing. they both did but they too, were dumb to realize what it actually is. it's already love. they're in love.

as lucas opened the door, he didn't dare to look back. because once he did, he swore the tears would come crashing down twice as hard as the current. he sniffed lightly and wiped them away before closing the door.

he planned to go back to seoul and accept what jungwoo had wanted. he thought giving jungwoo the satisfaction of his wishes would grant him his own wish of seeing the smile, even for just one last time.

but jungwoo didn't want that wish anymore. he didn't want to go through the divorce. he is married to lucas and he planned to stay married until the end of time. because now, he knows. now, he can go after him. now, there's now else and there's just them.

he wasn't going to let that man get away so easily.

and so he pushed the covers and got up the bed. he didn't bother slipping on his slippers and just came rushing through the door in a robe.

he hoped that lucas hasn't gone far yet. and he was right because that same man was delayed of walking from wiping down the continuous flow of tears. he was outside in the hall and anyone that would see him right now would think he just got broken up.

cctv people would love the show.

"you stop right there." jungwoo yelled.

the man was already 2 doors down from jungwoo's but jungwoo didn't care at this point if he was yelling through the halls and bothering other people's sleep.

"you don't get to do that. not to me. do you know who i am?"

"i am kim jungwoo, ceo of kim healthcare foundation and god forgive me if i am being selfish right now. but you, lucas, you are the reason why i became this selfish. all my life i didn't get you because you weren't mine to get. so now, how dare you follow me in bali just so we can fix this damn relationship?! this damn relationship that isn't even real?" he questioned.

"you don't get to do that to me! you don't get to walk in here and confess your love when it's all too late! you are too late because i've been doing that for 5 damn years and you chose to ignore the fucking signs!" he had tears escaping his eyes and his emotions were all over the place. "and now i feel like i'm obligated to answer to that just because you're lucas. you're the man, you're everybody's first love."

"but why can't you do that 5 years earlier?!"

"why can't you do that when i made all the efforts and sacrifices? why did it have to be now when i was so ready and so close to giving you up? why did you choose to ignore the signs?" his voice softened. "you chose to do that and i felt it. 5-year long! 5 years, lucas, do you know how much that hurt? do you have any idea how much i've been trying to keep it all to myself?"

"i have feelings, i'm not some mere toy you can pick up and play with. so please if you're here to do that, just stop right now." he wiped his tears roughly but turned back to face his husband.

"i have feelings for you. actual heavy feelings, in a soul-wrenching, heart-pounding kinda way."

"so im telling you, if what you're feeling is real, and what you said to me in there just now was real, tell me. right now, so i don't have to cry over you for another 5 years before i move on." he heaved out a heavy sigh and his continues flow of tears wasn't really helping up to him.

"please tell me it's all true."