(a/n: music for the second half)

the look of utter pain and disbelief crossed the twins' face. they look exactly like each other now. they kept looking back at their parents thinking if this is going to be the last time they're meeting like this, like a complete family.

maybe things are just too complicated for them to understand. maybe they're too young to fix something like this.

"you're just gonna stop trying?" mark says.

"you're not even gonna try even just for us?" he adds. "maybe not for us anymore but for sungchan perhaps?"

mark's tears started to fall. "what's gonna happen to him, dad? it's the first time i've been with him, it's your first time to be with him. then we're just gonna leave?"

the only words that ran through jaehyun's head was 'i'm sorry' and it's not even enough for him even if he repeats it over and over.

"and papa? what about him? it's the first time i had a papa, all these years it's just been you and me. minhyung also only had his first time with you and we're just gonna leave them?"

"and how about minhyung? i'm gonna be away from my twin brother? and my baby brother?" they don't realize how much it's taken a toll on the twins.

they kept thinking they were gonna understand someday but it's hard to tell they actually would.

"minhyung, why aren't you saying anything? they're gonna keep us apart!" the scared look on mark's face was evident for minhyung to see.

but mark can't do anything about it. he has no power over his parents. in the end, it's still their papa and dad who would have the final decision.

"makeu-yah..." he starts as he looks him in his eyes, pooling tears in his sockets. "it's not gonna work."

the tiny ray of hope vanished from mark's face. slowly, he started to lose it and stared in his brother's eyes matching the exact same energy.

minhyung's giving up too. he thinks. which means we've reached the end of the road.

they're too damaged.

"but..." he sniffs. "that would mean we're moving back for good."

minhyung began to cry it all out. he hugged his brother tight while mark still stared into the abyss, looking for answers anywhere. there was none.

minhyung sniffed and tightened his embrace even more.

"i guess... we better head back so i could start packing." mark utters almost a whisper.

he wrapped his arms around his brother and quietly sniffs. he soon let go and took a look at his parents. he made eye contact with his papa and more tears welled up his eyes.

suddenly, he made his way to his papa and gave him a rather tight embrace by the neck. he sobbed so much quietly and took his precious time to feel his papa's warmth for the last time.

"i'm gonna miss you."

and taeyong now realized how much he hurt his children. this pains him twice as when he separated with jaehyun. he looks at jaehyun's side and he sees minhyung hugging his dad as well.

this is what they have to go through. he thinks.

"i love you so much, mark. always remember that." he whispers by his son's ear as he hugged him back tighter.

soon, his son let go and mark faced his dad. "i'll tell ten hyung that we're going back to new york so he can get us tickets." and the twins left the place with tears in their eyes.

silence filled the place as they witnessed all three of their children crying because of them. nothing pains them more.

"i..." jaehyun doesn't even know where to start.

seeing how heavy their children's aura is, judging from their bloodshot eyes, the pain they must've felt was completely different. but they were right. jaehyun thinks. things are far too different now that they've met their missing parents, the parents they've longed for and the parents they dreamed of. they can't just leave and act like nothing happened.

things are gonna be too different and hard to deal with if they don't fix this now.

but does jaehyun still wanna fix it? yes, i do wanna fix it. does he? that, jaehyun doesn't know. probably?

he hoped too much on probably. but hell, he's still gonna try.

they're right, i have to try.

he walks slowly towards his ex-husband, eyes glued to the ground and breathing heavily. he don't know what could happen but it's his last shot.

his hand reached in for his hand and slowly held it. then, he started to look for teayong's eyes. they had an eye contact.

"can i take you somewhere?" he starts. his breath was shaking and so did his voice. his muscles are spasming and he surely doesn't know what could happen next. "i wanna show you something."

jaehyun got out of the car parked beneath a tree. he looked at taeyong through the windshield as he made his way on the other side of the car.

funny thing is, he took the car from their driver and asked him to go take a cab home. he soon realized what he's asking for the driver so he contacted another driver in their house and asked to pick him up.

when jaehyun reached the other side, he reached for the door handle and open the door for taeyong. as soon as taeyong was out, he spoke to jaehyun. "why did you take me here?"

jaehyun looked around and it was just the two of them, "do you remember this place?" he asks.

taeyong walked around going near the edge of the cliff where a tree trunk bench was laid. it's crazy how it looks exactly like it did when they last came here. jaehyun stepped away from the car and looked in front of him, city lights going blur from afar and taeyong was the only sight that was clear.

"i took you here, senior year college, and told you all about my plans for you." a short pause. "that was the last this cliff has heard from me."

"i remember telling this cliff, whispering, all my plans for the future while i was still here. that future included you and the kids." he sat beside taeyong on the tree trunk. "i used to come here alone because it made me feel safe, like my secrets were safe in this cliff. then i took you here for the first and last time because back then i was courting you and i thought you were the one. that's the only time i ever thought of someone being the one."

"so when i took you here, i wanted this cliff to keep your secrets safe like how it did mine. i want you to feel safe in here too, that way this could be our place."

he took his coat off and laid it beside him.

"so why did you take me here? you didn't answer my question." taeyong asks one more time.

jaehyun lets out a breath. "this is a special place for me, even if i left it years ago. and i want this place to witness what im about to do."

"are you trying to get back with me? because i hardly think it's still gonna work." taeyong says in a low voice. "it's not like the movies, jaehyun."

jaehyun lets out another sigh and sniffs due to the cold wind.

"do you remember the day we first met?"

"or what about the time i took you out on our first date?"

"and the day i took you on our last date as boyfriends?"

jaehyun says subsequently and taeyong was weirded out. "do you know what all of those had in common?"

i don't even know. taeying thinks and so he looked away from jaehyun's side.

"i was thinking of one thing. it's that i wanna spend the rest of my life with you."

and taeyong looked back to him so quick. "it's the same as all these years we were apart, it's the same even when we had a divorce, it's the same as now."

"which is why mark never saw me with another lover." he whispers enough for taeyong to hear.

"why do you keep on waiting?"

he looks at his ex and smiles softly. "because the feeling when i first saw you, it's still the same. my feelings didn't change. you're the only one i wanna be with. so it's either you or no one."

there was a pregnant pause. by now, jaehyun thinks bringing beer could be better but he wants to go theough this sober.

"back in new york, i also thought... what if i went back here to get back with you? i planned it for a long time, only minhyung became the utmost reason why i had to come back here. if it weren't for them, i wouldn't have the guts." he continues.

"taeyong..." he faced his ex husband. "i hope you know how sorry i am about all the things i did before the divorce. and after."

"i'm sorry i concluded things without hearing your side of the story. i'm sorry i went on with the divorce without thinking it through. and i'm sorry i never reached out when you did after the divorce." he hears taeyong sniff.

"i never meant to cut you out. i was just... too ashamed of what i did. i didn't know how i'd ever face you if i see you somewhere. i hated that decision so much." his voice started to crack. "i regret every single bit of it."

"because of that, i didn't get to see two of my children grow up. i didn't get to be with you when you were pregnant and in need of my help. i should've been there for all of you but i was halfway across the world with this huge ege and huge pride."

a tear fell and he didn't even feel it. "i wish i could turn back time but i can't."

"wouldn't even be sure if it would work, jae. there's so much we need to consider." taeyong says. "i understand, taeyong. but i want you to know i'm not stopping this time. i'm never giving up on you now."

"this is where i ask us for another chance." he says lowly, reaching for the other's hand. "please taeyong, give me another chance."

taeyong squeezed his hand, watching as his ex husband's tears fall. "jaehyun, it's not that easy."

"but it is, taeyong." he cuts him off and sniffs. "i can't stop now when i know there's a clear path for me towards you."

"what if you realize you're only doing this for our children?"

jaehyun closes his mouth and stares into his dark orbs. "taeyong, you don't realize how long you've been running through my mind. for years. and this right here..." he brings taeyong's hand towards his chest. "this beats for you every second of every day."

"remember when we had a promise to grow old together? i wanna fulfill it with you." he sniffs.

"but what if things go wrong again? we can't guarantee the future, jae. we will fight again, i know it." he says.

"then we'll fight. we'll fight all day, all night, until we're too tired then we'll make up and fall back to each other's arms. we'll fight until we run out of things to fight about. we'll fight over and over because it's a part of life. but you know the good thing is it's what would make us stronger."

"how are we even gonna make sure of that? jaehyun, there's a lot of things we have to clear. i'm too scared of the fact that you could leave me again." taeyong starts to sob.

"if we fix this... and bring our children together," he sniffs. "if we break up once again, i don't think i can let my children go through it."

"it's not fair to them." he adds.

"baby, you don't have to worry a single thing about it." jaehyun held onto him tighter. "because i'm not gonna leave you. you hold my heart, you're one-fourth of this heart. i'm too crazy for you to even consider leaving again."

"i wanna fix us not just for our children. i want you and only you in a thousand lifetimes, in a thousand ups and downs, until the end of time you're all i want. taeyong, i waited all my life for you. i dreamed to have you."

he held his face with both hands, touches his skin ever so gently, as if he was made of glass. he delicately wipes of his tears although it continues to fall from taeyong's eyes. "i don't wanna do that stupid mistake of leaving you again. i can't. i don't wanna go through life without you, because i already felt what it's like."

"i don't wanna wait for another lifetime, taeyong. i want this with you now."

say it, jaehyun. please say it.

"taeyong, i love you."

thank you god you made him say it.

and taeyong's tears went on like the waterfall.

"give us a chance, please." he whispers, forehead landing on the other's. "and i promise all of my promises before one more time. i promise it's gonna be different this time."

"i won't ever leave you again. that's the promise."