the next day, taeyong's stuff was brought to the big house and he was forced to stay. even if he wanted to refuse and although he can refuse to jessica and krystal, he can never do it on jaehyun.

it's just that jaehyun was so tenacious. he wanted to be there for all the months he's missed on taeyong being pregnant. he already lost all the months he was supposed to take care of taeyong when he had taeyang, he wasn't about to do it again.

it's almost dinner and taeyong was being served a lot of food from time to time. the maids would come to his room and serve a tray of assorted fruits. sometimes bread or chocolate. but taeyong wasn't picky even when he had taeyang. he got used to not getting everything he wanted and settled for less.

but jaehyun was there now and he was willing to give everything to keep him healthy. in the end, taeyong just accepted whatever was being given to him.

when taeyang saw him again for the first time, he broke into tears. although taeyang didn't know why, he still tried to make his mama smile. taeyong missed his baby that he broke into even more tears.

"taeyong, i have a surprise for you." jaehyun said when he opened the door to taeyong's room.

taeyong was peacefully reading a book when jaehyun knocked. he didn't even know what surprise could be given since jaehyun has given so much already.

"mama!"

all of a sudden, a baby went screaming as he entered the room. it was taeyang.

"taeyang, be careful! mama's tummy is big!"

taeyong didn't process what was happening and even his brain was buffering when he saw the baby boy. he ran going to his mama and jumped on the bed.

the tight hug was finally there. the one where taeyong missed for all the months. he didn't even remember the child when he was dragged to the house earlier in the day. not only did he feel a rush of emotions, he started to shed tears.

"mama i missed you! where you been?" the baby asked trying to wipe his mama's tears. "mama, why you cry?"

taeyong cried even harder to hear his son speaking well already. he missed so much, 6 months was so much.

"i'm sorry baby, i just missed you. where did you go? did you just arrive?" taeyong tried to dodge the question and just focused on not sobbing in front of the boy.

"auntie soojung took me to the mall with her boyfriend!"

taeyong hugged the boy once more and let out his tears silently. "mama, don't leave again. please."

now, the boy was taken to the clinic for monthly check ups. taeyong wanted to come but he was forbidden and advised to stay at home. and so, he just waited for his son to come back home.

he even slept with taeyang on his bed that night. the baby missed his mama's presence so much that he insisted to sleep beside him all he wants.

as he strolled down the grass path on his way back, he met with the father of his child. apparently not his husband. he stopped on his tracks to meet his ex boss coming for him. on his hand was a bag of fruits and sweets to go with. it also had fried chicken and different desserts. jaehyun distinctly remember how taeyong had a sweet tooth so he bought his favorite strawberry macarons.

although jaehyun knew that a pregnant man should eat less sweets and meat, he'd limit all of it for taeyong. that's why on top of it all, he had salad.

"why are you here? you should be resting on your bed. come on, let's get you to bed." jaehyun instantly held gently on his back to guide him inside the house.

"jaehyun, don't make me bedridden. i like it here, it's relaxing." he held onto jaehyun's arm and walked slowly with him.

jaehyun didn't have a choice and chose to guide taeyong through the path. they went back further into the massive garden and enjoyed how the breeze kissed their skin. taeyong has never been this relaxed his whole life. he had a hard time trying to get his family to accept him and all he did was work.

"taeyong, i have a question." jaehyun started, looking down the ground. "how did you manage to take care of yourself when you had taeyang?"

taeyong rummaged through his box of thoughts inside his head. it's been so long but the memory was as clear as a bubble. "i used up everything i saved before my nephew even had to study. i had enough to keep the baby healthy inside me and used up my insurance to pay for my hospital bills before it could even expire."

"my family didn't even visit me in the hospital when i had the baby. i was taken to the hospital by some stranger who caught me when my water broke in the pharmacy. when i came back to them, i had a baby in my hand like nothing happened." taeyong said calmly.

it was like just peacefully reminiscing old times except the memory wasn't even a happy one. "and then i didn't know what happened the next after that because i left him on your doorstep. i used up all my money and i became broke. so i called you then i came back."

the lump in his throat was evident as he spoke. he didn't want to say anything to jaehyun but he figured 2 years was too much to keep everything from him. he had to know at some point.

"i'm sorry." was all jaehyun can say.

taeyong looked at him with a smile. he didn't hold any grudge now, he has forgiven everything since then.

"were you serious?" he started. "when you said you'd let me free after i have the baby?"

he faced the younger as they stopped in row of tulips. his favorite flowers. cat got jaehyun's tongue and he rubbed his nape trying to avoid the other's eyes. "uhm..."

no words were coming out of his mouth except from the said onomatopoeia. he wasn't sure what the latter would want to hear so he went with his original plan. "yeah. yeah of course, i mean if that's what you want."

"are you sure?" taeyong asked.

his hands were unheld. they rested on his sides relaxed and at ease. jaehyun wanted to hold them but he went shy. "what if i don't want you to?"

none of them spoke a word after that. taeyong stared down the ground as jaehyun stared at him. he wanted to be lost in his eyes to search for an answer, any possible answer, but jaehyun couldn't force his head up.

"i'm confused jaehyun. you make me so confused."

after dinner, jaehyun went out to buy taeyong takoyaki. taeyong said it last minute, it wasn't even his intention to say it out loud but jaehyun heard it. he quickly went out and drove to the nearest store available at 10 in the night.

for the meantime, taeyang was sent off to sleep hours ago so he was the only awake one in the house. he's roamed the whole house already and the only room he hasn't seen was jaehyun's.

he decided to take a little sneak peak before he jaehyun could find him.

when he entered, it was the same as it always been. the only difference was the change of drapes, carpet and sheets. the bed was in the same place and the drawers too.

he went to look at his vanity and the letter was no longer stuck on the mirror. he walked around the room to try and find it. he must've thrown it away when we fought months ago. he thought. but he took a look at the frames that were present above the bed. there it was.

the paper looked like it was subdued. it had torn sides and tears stains. jaehyun cried on it multiple times after he left. a lot of memories came rushing back to taeyong as he stared at the piece of paper incased in a glass frame.

the wall behind it had a black curtain. he walked towards it and pulled it down only to reveal photos. tons of photos--his photos. photos from company trips with the team building 4 years ago, photos of him from meetings, photos of him stolen from when he worked on his desk.

but there were also photos of him and jaehyun. and it was the biggest.

it was only a few seconds later when he noticed a small box sitting on top of the thick frame that held the note. he crawled on the bed to try and get it. when he opened it, it revealed a beautiful gold ring.

"taeyong."

time won't fly, it's like i'm paralyzed by it
i'd like to be my old self again, but i'm still trying to find it

he quickly turned around and saw jaehyun from the door frame. on his right hand, it held a paper bag that must be containing his food. when jaehyun saw him, there was already tears coming out of his eyes. taeyong didn't even notice he had those.

after plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own
now you mail back my things and i walk home alone

"you lied." taeyong whispered enough for jaehyun to hear from afar. he looked at the ring resting on taeyong's hands then back at taeyong.

he found it. jaehyun thought.

"you said you were going to leave me be, when i had the baby. what is this?" taeyong raised the small box and pointed at the pictures that stuck on his wall.

but you keep my old scarf from that very first week
'cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me

jaehyun gulped and closed the door before walking towards the man. the paper bag was no longer in his hands and was set on a table nearby. he wanted to walk towards taeyong but he was stopped.

"don't come near me!" taeyong yelled.

you can't get rid of it, 'cause you remember it all too well, yeah

he looked at the small piece on his hand with teary eyes. it was all blurred now which made him tear up even more. he clenched onto the item and had his head up to face the owner of the ring.

"what were you trying to do, jaehyun?" he asked. he wished he could throw it away but it made him hold onto it tighter. the more he wanted to smash it down the ground, the more he wanted to keep it to himself.

it was supposed to be his, after all.

"i heard you with jessica noona so tell me!"

'cause there we are again, when i loved you so
back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known

"i wanted to propose to you." jaehyun finally said. he sighed big and slow. he composed himself in front of taeyong but every move he made made him want to crumble down and hold taeyong in his arms.

"i wanted to have you back. i needed to have you back. i was all wrong, i was a mess when you left. i couldn't work, i couldn't eat, i couldn't do anything. but i love you, taeyong." he said.

it was rare, i was there, i remember it all too well

by now, tears went streaming down from his precious eyes. it wasn't a beautiful sight but he was still pretty to the eyes of taeyong. "do you love me because you really do or do you love me because you need me as your secretary?"

jaehyun took a look. he walked closer to the man even if he was forbidden to. he held onto his hand even if wasn't allowed to. he took the box from his hands and closed it. "taeyong, i love you. i really do. the moment i saw you from the interview wearing rusty old clothes to making it as my secretary in ironed dress shirts. i loved you every single day. god, i even named taeyang after you even before i knew he was yours."

he held taeyong's face and stared right into his eyes. "i wanted us to be a whole family. we had one kid, now we're having another one. i wanted to form a whole family."

taeyong let out all his tears. he was getting stressed and he needed to stop, fast. it was bad for him and the baby. "can you be taeyang's mama again?"

wind in my hair, you were there, you remember it all
down the stairs, you were there, you remember it all

"i always have been." taeyong said and rested his forehead against the other's.

"but will you be my husband now?"

truly, the most unideal way to propose coming from jaehyun himself, a man of wealth and power. but taeyong found it lovely nonetheless. "will you not kick me out, again?" he said.

jaehyun smiled and said, "yes, i won't."

it was rare, i was there, i remember it all too well

"then yes."

(A/N: this is almost coming to an end :) )